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Name: sasha777 | Date: Feb 13th, 2008 8:39 PM
Hi Joker. Thanks for your response and thanks for starting this new thread for all of us who have been here and those who will be brand new. I hear you when you say..."If I hear about one more person getting pregnant..." My husband and I just came in from going out for dinner and it was "kids night" - .99 for kids to eat. There were all these beautiful babies and toddlers and kids and I just couldn't stop staring and smiling and wishing... Joker, I know in my heart that you and I and many others are going to have our wishes come true soon! We have plans - you're going to get even more aggressive with your baby plans and I just had my ultrasound yesterday. Knowledge is power. I am sure that Ms. Monet and others were once in our shoes wondering... and now look where they are today-with beautiful, healthy babies in their arms. I am so grateful I have this thread to turn to. All of my friends know I'm trying to get pregnant and I hate having to tell them again and again, "No not yet." With this thread, it seems like I can talk about everything openly and honestly. Thanks! Have a great evening Joker and everyone else! Sasha~ ↑
Name: angelkitty | Date: Feb 13th, 2008 8:59 PM
Thanks for starting the new thread Joker!! I do understand your feelings about how easy it is for others to get pregnant. My favorite line is "we do not know how this happened - we are totally surprised." UGH!!!! For the two years I tried to get pregnant I had several friends and my sister get pregnant. I was happy for them but sad for me. I had an early m/c the 1st time I got pregnant but the 2nd time it was b/c of my fibroids. When my doc told me he took out 12 I was amazed. He had to leave 2 b/c of their location - too much blood loss. Joker I understand angry frustrated and hopeless....I was alll of those when ttc and thenwent through those same emotions after losing 2 babies. You just kind of feel like -when does it end. Sasha I am not sure of what is the right thing to do but I would definitely consult with a RE and see what they think. My RE wants me to try as quickly as possible. ↑
Name: KKMS | Date: Feb 14th, 2008 10:10 AM
My favorite is the friend who talks to you about her "infertility problems" after 4 months of trying. Suddenly she understands my feelings and wants to talk about it. SERIOUSLY...it's been 2 years for us. Now, they get pregnant and suddenly forget "our infertility bond." ↑
Joker, I think we've all been there before. Sometimes, we just don't feel upbeat and optimistic, and that's okay. There was a time right after my miscarriage when I couldn't even look at pregnant women. I would literally divert my eyes. And my boss had a baby boy about 1 month after my baby was due. She's now back at work from maternity leave, and I see pictures of her son, and I can't help but think about my poor baby boy who couldn't make it. And now one of my closest friends is pg, and while I'm happy for her, I can't help but feel pangs of jealousy and sorrow over my situation. Our feelings are natural, and that's why this forum is such as godsend! When I'm feeling low, I know I can always come to this thread to discuss my feelings among women who understand. And then we have graduates like Melissak, hopeful, and Ms. Monet who let us know that all things are possible!!! ↑
Name: jasp | Date: Feb 16th, 2008 2:27 AM
Hi ladies... I totaly understand how you guys feel as you all know I had 2 mc due to fibroids but you know what my best friend had a baby 3 days after my 2nd mc I had just came from the hosp for a D&C and everytime i see her baby I feel so sad in a way it has had an impact our relationship WE dont see each other as much and its my fault.The other thing is it seems like where ever I am there is a pregnant woman. I cant stand it. I know that every one of us here is going to be a great mother we actually want to be mothers we should be mothers.I sometimes feel very low but when I come to this site it is uplifting to hear other people stories and have a positive attitude. Thank you ladies. You have helped a lot in more ways than one.
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Name: jasp | Date: Feb 16th, 2008 2:42 AM
By the way I went for my Dr appt and we are cleared to start ttc in march.She didn't want to do any test yet cause she said we got pregnant on our own last time so she gaveus six months if nothing happens then she will do something about it . Well if you aks me I dont want to wait six months again I already did six months after my myo I want to get pregnant like NOW. It may sound crazy but sometimes as excited as I am to ttc sometimes I feel sad about it cause it feel like its going tobe like I am trying to replace the babies I should have had. I am so confused right now ↑
Hi girls-I had my post-opp.app.and everything looks good and we have a plan with my Dr. to see him July 15th, he will do HSG before we can start trying in August. So much about me but that is not important, I have a long six month to go. But the reason whu I posted today is, that it breaks my heart to read your feelings, it is SA SAD and NOONE who didn't have to go through this CAN NOT understand the feelings. We all know IT IS VERY HARD sometimes, harder than we think we can carry, but EVERYTHING IS POSIBBLE, MsMonet is the best example of it. WEall will get there, NO MATTER what it takes, because we want it so much and that WILL will takes us there. Until we have our uterus, there will be nothing what can stop us on our way. There is almost always a WAY (even if it has to be IVF) and where is the WILL there is a WAY. And even thought our emotions are bringing us down sometimes (we all are womens, very emotional creations ) we have to look into future and find a power to STAND UP and KEEP GOING, just like MSMonet did. And lets face it she had way more obstacles on her way that any of us did and she MADE IT. Joker I wish I could as much as I can't to help you, other girls and myself to make it easier, but unfortunately "it is what it is" my Dr. said, and the only way I can help is to assure you that you WILL DO IT. THERE IS ALMOST ALWAYS A WAY. And because you helped so many souls with this thread, you know there is God up there who is watching over and he has his plan for you. YOU WILL HOLD YOUR BABY ONE DAY, I know it. I will pray for you as much as I can, I promise and for all girls who are TTC. IT WILL HAPPENED and we all will be the happiest mommys in the world. We will have our "M world" threat helping each other with everyday baby issue. I PROMISE. ↑
Name: Kat123 | Date: Feb 18th, 2008 8:37 AM
I found it, Joker, has your doctor mention trying the GnRh agonist stimulation w/ clomid ovarian reserve test yet? The GnRh test is for assessing reproductive potential in women. The clomid reserve is to determine if your ovaries are able to produce quality eggs for fertilization. I just went through it and it was really easy. After I finish it - I went in - they did an ultra sound and they were able to see the activity showing they are active. I was told if they were not active than that means I probable wouldn't be able to conceive. So far so good, so we are actively trying this month. Because I got pregnant once, originally they did not test my husband, but if we don't get pregnant this month they are going to test him. Sasha, sorry to hear that your fibroids are coming back. Are you going to try fertility drugs to get pregnant faster? ↑
Name: sasha777 | Date: Feb 18th, 2008 9:53 AM
Hi everyone. Thanks for the kind words. Has anyone heard of "The Fertility Diet?" It's a study that was put out by Harvard researchers and the Nurses Health Study which speaks to fertility and diet. I read the article in Newsweek magazine which was put out months ago and picked up the book yesterday. It has some pretty interesting things in it which speak to why some women don't get pregnant due to their diet. i.e. It says women can boost their fertility by drinking whole milk rather than skim milk as well as dropping some weight if needed. Well, I was thinking back to when I got pregnant and truth be told, I was in much better shape than I am now. I was 28 pounds lighter and we got pregnant immediately! You know I gained close to 40 pounds with the pregnancy and fibroid growth of 46 fibroids and surgery. So far, I've lost about ten pounds. Well, I was thinking and speaking to my dh and thought that perhaps we whould up the anty with our exercise program so that we both can shed some of this extra weight as well as change my diet - short term only. The book says that exercise is needed to keep the waistband from expanding and that once you're pregnant, to go back to a lighter eating plan. So, today I started eating more whole milk products - which is totally crazy to me because I'm so used to non fat, low fat, etc. products. I am also back to using a fertility monitor which I said I wouldn't use. (I promise not to stress out too much about it). My issue now though is, am I doing damage to the two fibroids I have - though small they are right now - and potential future ones, by suddenly reintroducing dairy into my diet - short term to boost ovulation and fertility? Any answers would be greatly appreciated!!!!! Also, Kat123, you asked about fertility drugs...well our plan - in agreement with my ob-gyn was to try for six months. Well, this is now the beginning of month 3. My sister when hearing of my fibroids said I should perhaps go straight on to fertility treatment now rather than waiting four more months. I am so confused...my doctor said that she hopes the fibroids don't complicate a pregancy and to let her know if I have any questions. I'm seriously thinking of calling her and asking her if she thinks we should continue waiting to see if it happens naturally - three more tries after this is not that big of a deal I know - or should we move on ahead to fertility treatment? Again, any feedback is greatly appreciated girls! ;) P.S. I've been working out like crazy in the last two days! I already feel so much better! :) Sasha ↑
Name: Josie7 | Date: Feb 18th, 2008 4:29 PM
Hi Joker, thank you so much for starting this thread, I started reading this weekend and just caught up to the end and am so blessed to have found such a wonderful group of real women. Congrats to those that have had the blessing of a baby and congrats to those who keep strong and keep on trying despite... I m/c in August 07 and had my myo on Dec 20th. Was told to wait three months...so I am doing that. It's tough especially with your two closest friends being preg right now. I am happy yet sad and I finally feel I can talk and actually relate to someone else out there. You guys have given me so much determination over these few days. Has anyone had any problems with irregular AF after myo. Since the surgery on 12/20 I thought AF had began on 1/4 but it was only spotting then she showed up on the 1/30. I started spotting again on 2/15 and still spotting today 2/18. I am on BC and am not sure what my cycle is anymore since surgery. Is it too soon to be confused? Just wondering? I was told to stay on the BC straight for 2 months and then TTC. Just a little nervouse because not sure what my body is doing right now. BTW, I had 12 monsters removed. ↑
Name: katarinak | Date: Feb 18th, 2008 6:54 PM
Josie7-we are on same trail, so far. I had my baby born in August at 23 weeks nad 4 days and he didn't make it and I had surgery Janury 24th. I had 2 fibroids removed and have to wait 6 month. I had my regular period already since surgery and it was normal 4 days with regular flow. Didn't have any spotting between, so I think it might be birth control pills you are taking. I am not taking any. So I believe it might make the diference. ↑
Name: Kat123 | Date: Feb 18th, 2008 8:22 PM
Sasha, this is my decision on the matter. If I don't get pregnant by the end of March, I'm going to start the aggressive fertility treatments. I was told they would give me a strong dosage of clomid. My girlfriend had fertility issues and she got pregnant from the clomid right away. I don't want to wait too long because of the stories I'm hearing of women getting fibroids right after the surgery and I don't want to worry about that. If we don't get pregnant from taking the clomid, we decided to quit and adopt. But for now, I am not going to worry about it because it is what it is and it also doesn't do us any good to get frustrated anymore. It only hurts our body more. And Sasha, 3 more months is a long time. I know what you are going through. Thats why we said if it doesn't happen at the end of March, we are going for the treatment. We start trying this month, so we are waiting to see what happens. I will start treatment in April if nothing. I haven't heard of any diets to get pregnant. I agree its important to be healthy. Congrats on your weight loss. I'm still trying to lose my stomach.
Josie7, I didn't have a period for a month after the surgery. I spotted a little and it went away. The next month, it came light, than month 3, it came back a little heavy, but nothing like prior to the surgery. It could be the birth controls. ↑
Name: Josie7 | Date: Feb 19th, 2008 2:46 PM
Thanks so much Katarinka & Kat123 your information was very helpful to me and definitely puts my mind at ease. By the way since I am new to the Thread I am 29 and was 20 weeks when my little angel passed.
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Name: Bumblebee | Date: Feb 20th, 2008 2:51 AM
Josie - So sorry to hear of your loss at 20! Can I ask you all - how large were the fibroids before you / ob decided to do the myomectomy? Mine is 3cm I think and total of 3 , and ob says it is not needed. But had 1 mc and going thru 2nd mc now... and just not sure if fibroids could have been problem? Please let me know at what size is it advised to remove... Thanks ↑
Name: jasp | Date: Feb 20th, 2008 11:18 AM
Bumblebee with my first m/c mine was about 4-5cm and my ob told me it wasn't a problem when I hd my 2 m/c I was 8wks but my uterus was as if I was 26wks. When Ihad the myo cause I refused to go on lupron causeof all the S/E it she removed 7 the bigest being the size of a melon ↑
Name: angelkitty | Date: Feb 20th, 2008 12:20 PM
Bumblebee my RE originally thought I only had 2-3 fibroids but during myomectomy he found 14 of them!!! ↑
Name: Bumblebee | Date: Feb 20th, 2008 1:36 PM
jasp / angelkitty - thanks for the info. Jasp - Melon - oh my! Did your doc say it grew during your 2nd pg? I heard they can grow due to more blood / etc to the uterus. ANGELKitty - Do you know size of largest one by any chance? Also do any of you know if location of the fibroids makes a difference? I think mine are on anterior uterus muscle wall... ?? ? Thanks. ↑
Name: jasp | Date: Feb 21st, 2008 1:18 AM
Yes it did grow with my 2nd pg cause of the extra blood supply my baby never had a chance with that monster that what made me have the myo because I could have taken the lupron to shrink it but if i was to get pg again which I will be starting to ttc next month it would have grown big again.mine were located on the uterine wall ↑
Name: angelkitty | Date: Feb 21st, 2008 9:04 AM
Bumblebee - I had three lumped together that were EACH the size of a golf ball. My RE did not comment about the size of the others. I do think the location probably would make a difference. ↑
Name: Josie7 | Date: Feb 21st, 2008 3:00 PM
Hi Bumblebee, I had 16 fibroids, my doc thought it was only 4-6 of them while I was pregnant but when I had the myo they saw and retrieved 16. While pregnant the largest was 11cm in diameter and then the other large one was 8cm in diameter and the others were like golf balls. However, after I lost the baby, they decreased in size and either broke up to create 10 more or multiplied, God knows. The large one decreased to 5cm right before surgery and the second one was about 2cm and the others were gradually smaller with the smallest being about the size of a ball point pen point. So it was a similar case to Angelkitty, it is strange how it all those extra monsters either developed or broke down over a short period of time. ↑
Name: KM Williams | Date: Feb 21st, 2008 11:14 PM
Hello everyone it's been awhile since I posted something. My story is in the previous thread for those who don't know I lost my daughter Makayla (1st child) on Dec 31, 2007. I was 19.5 weeks, I have a 9 cm fibroid (which they think is two bunched together) and I have another fibroid that's 5 cm. They are both located in the uterus. The 9 cm fibroid was located right next to the baby like a twin. I've been debating whether or not I should have the surgery. I am 80% for it and 20% against it. I was going to try with the fibroid this month and see what happens but the thought of loosing another child is something I definitely don't want to experience again. I went to the doctors last week to get a saline test done to determine whether it was the fibroid or my cervix that caused me to loose my daughter. At the appointment the Dr. said she was having a hard time finding my cervix which they always do and canceled the test after trying to find it for a few minutes. For some that don't know the saline is injected into your uterus through a tube that has to go through the cervix. I was so upset after the appointment I just went in my car and cried. My pastors wife had a myomectomy and I scheduled an appointment with her doctor for Thursday the 28th. Can any of you assist with some questions I should ask?
Sometimes I feel like I am in a dream and will wake up but this is my reality. However, one thing I did learn from this whole experience is to praise God more. I also realized who is there for me and who isn't. It seems like the people I depended on the most during my pregnancy and would talk to the most are not the same or maybe I changed. People avoid me like the plague because they don't know what to do or say to me. Is it the same for any of you? Sorry for the long post. ↑
Name: KM Williams | Date: Feb 21st, 2008 11:18 PM
Joker thank you for starting a new thread it's so much easier to log in and view. Also, keep the faith God is going to make a way for both you and your husband. You've touched so many people's lives just my startting ths forum. Remember to always keep God first in everything you do, in good time and in bad. That's true faith. God's Blessings and baby dust to all those who are ttc. ↑
Name: angelkitty | Date: Feb 22nd, 2008 11:48 AM
KM I am sorry for all you have been through. I do understand. Believe, I know all too well what you are going through. My journey of ttc and 2 m/c is enough to make a great lifetime movie. Hey maybe we should all do that!!! I hope that you will not ttc this month with those fibroids. I DO believe that God can do anything - HE can and you could very well have a problem free pregnancy but I just do not advise that. Not after all you have been through. The myo is a hard surgery - no lie. I am a little over 2 weeks after mine and I still have some pain but it is doable. Some questions you may want to ask...How many myo's has your dr done? How many have turned into emergency hysterectomy? Has the dr ever lost a patient while doing a myo? How many myo's a year do they do? Have they ever had anyone that needed a blood transfusion? You may want to consider banking blood at this point. I am o negative and should have banked blood but did not. By the grace of God did I not need a transfusion. I did come close. KM on the comment about people acting weird around you. I have been there too. Let me just offer some advice - in some form or fashion (even if it hurts like heck to do it) bring up your loss and put people at ease. People really do not know what to say to us in this situation. When I went back to work people just did not knwo what to say to me so they did nto say anything. I do not like tension so I just brought it up myself. I even made jokes about jumping back into the saddle when we could and trying again. it is hard for other people to know what to say or do in a situation so just try to put them at ease. And if you feel like crying just cry. People will cry with you. Take care!!! Hugs and more hugs!!! ↑
KM, I also understand your dilemma of whether to try again or have a myomectomy. I'm also sorry for the loss of your daughter. Let me ask you this: have the doctors eliminated other reasons for your miscarriage? Also, did you have any pain prior to your m/c? I think many women on this board had horrible fibroid degeneration pain, which if severe enough and in the right place, can bring on preterm labor. If so, you might want to seriously consider a myo. A doc once told me the greatest predictor of future pregnancies is what occured in prior pregnancies. But - if you don't want the myo and get pg again, you MUST find a high-risk OB. Please, do your homework!! On another note, I just had an HSG exam yesterday - my first one post surgery. I was so nervous, thinking about scar tissue and all, that I almost cried in the waiting room. Thank GOD, everything looks fine! My tubes are open and clear (prior to the myo, my tubes were closed shut- maybe spasmed, maybe fibroid related), and my uterine cavity shows no residual fibroids! That's just the radiologist's preliminary findings, hopefully the final report will say the same thing. This HSG was very painful, though, while the last one was not. The tech told me its because the dye actually made its way through my tubes this time. So we're still on track to start trying in March, which will be about 5.5 months post-surgery. Just wanted to share good news - I've had nothing but downer news over the past few months. It was good to walk away from a doctor's appointment with a smile. ↑
Name: angelkitty | Date: Feb 22nd, 2008 4:24 PM
Healing!!!! Yeah!!!!! I am so happy to hear your news. I am sorry the HSG hurt this time but with news like that I am sure the pain is well worth it. I am just so excited for you. I hope you get your BFP the very first cycle!!!! ↑
Name: Joker | Date: Feb 23rd, 2008 5:42 PM
Hi girls! I'm sorry I have not been around..to make a long story short had to use a different computer and I could not remember my password since this one is stored on my usual computer..but I'm back and nothing has changed. Still not preggos and due to yet another scheduling conflict I will not be able to try this month..it wasn't planned to be this way but that is how it turned out!! Why is this happening! I'm thinking about buying a storage locker at a fertility bank and store my husbands you know what so I can have it when I need it and he can be off saving the world whenever! Has anyone heard from MsMonet? I know she must be beyond tired but I'm still a little worried! MsMonet please post soon! We all miss you and want to know how the twins are doing! I'm sorry if I have missed any questions or concerns. KM I'm truly sorry for your loss. I wish I had the answers for you..but we will all try to help you. I know this has already been asked but I'm going to ask again...have they ruled out other reasons for your losses? This may soon cruel or cold but please do not take it that way...sometimes these things happen due to chromosones..I know they say it usually happens in the 1st tri but it can happen later on also, or it could be due to some blood issue or not enough progestorone..I'm sure your doctor has ruled these things out. I know this is a hard time for..but if your doctor can't find any other cause for your losses then I recommend you seriously consider the surgery. The fibroid of 9cm is big in medical terms and for the uterus and with a pregnancy will only get bigger..and it depends on the type of fibroid..I mean location..I think if it is in the uterus muscle it causes more problems than if it was attached outside or inside the uterus because it actually distorts the uterus more..this is just my opinion and it is not based on anything (although I might have read it somewhere but not sure) just picture a fibroid inside the uterine lining and it growing..it would create stress and IMHO cause more issues than another type..also, the ultrasound may say 9CM but it can be much larger than that, there are plenty of women here..me included that after the surgery the doctors were shocked at how big the fibroids were.. angelkitty 's doctor thought she only had 2 or 3 and found 14, Jasp had a melon removed. KM, I'm not trying to talk you into the surgery I just want you to be aware of as much information so you can make the right decision for yourself. Be brave and be strong. Tell me why you are afraid of having the surgery. Maybe if you share your fears and concerns with us we can help you with them. I know the surgery is scary and there are sure answers, but we will be here to help you as much as we can. I was scared to have the surgery but since everyone I met (doctors) were like OMG! you need to have this surgery the decision was easy, but I understand it is not the same for others. I am now post surgery and I am glad I have it. I am now on to the next stage of trying to get pregnant which does not seem like it is going to be an easy one. HEALING! I wish I did not read your post! I'm sorry the HSG was painful but I was planning on demanding one when I go see my doc and from what I read it did say it would be painful but I was hoping others would say oh its no big deal! Now I'm scared...but at least I know what to expect. Did they offer you a sedative? Do you think they will knock me out for it? I'm very anti pain right now..it isn't so much the pain but just the fact that after all I have been through I still have to go through more and feel pain and I guess what I'm feeling is that GOD owes me but all I keep on doing is suffering! But whatever, I will have to suck it up and go through with it. Anyone here on clomid or thinking of taking clomid? I'm a prescription away from taking clomid. Of course I haven't spoken with my doctor yet, but I'll clue him in on my plans..I think the next time I see him he will have me committed or ban me from seeing him :-) Let me know if anyone is taking clomid or something similar. For all the ladies who are TTC, do you know if your partner is "OK" with sperm? Any Sperm issues? If there is a sperm issue do you think clomid will help? I don't know if there is a sperm issue with me yet, I guess I'm thinking of a back up plan by taking clomid if there is one. Sorry if my post is long and rambles on..I just haven't posted in awhile so there was a lot to say :-) Take care everyone! ↑
Joker, yes the HSG hurt, but I don't want to mislead you. It feels like very very bad cramps, but is NO WAY as painful as fibroid degeneration pain. Plus, the HSG is usually over in about 10 minutes or so. No need to take a sedative. Many docs allow you to take ibuprofen an hour beforehand. But like angelkitty said, I'll take the pain in exchange for a good outcome!!
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Name: KM Williams | Date: Feb 24th, 2008 1:41 AM
Hello Ladies thank you for your responses. Angle, Healing and Joker all of you are right. I've been debating whether or not to have the surgery. I've weighed the pros and the cons and the cons far outweigh the pros (not having the surgery). A 9 cm fibroid is large to have never mind having 2 a 9 cm and a 5cm. I've decided not to try this month and research more actively in having the surgery. To answer your question Joker no tests have been run on me after the delivery. I went to the doctors a week and a half ago to get a saline test done to determine whether it was the fibroid or my cervix that caused me to loose my daughter. At the appointment the Dr. said she was having a hard time finding my cervix which they always do and canceled the test after trying to find it for a few minutes. The doctor doesn't know why I went into preterm labor but has a strong feeling it had something to do with the fibroid. I had a slight pain that Thursday nothing too serious, that Friday I felt pressure in my vagina like I had a UTI. Saturday pain progressed and by Sunday night I was having contractions. Sorry for the ramble back to the subject. The doctor referred me to an infertility specialist and told me to make an appointment and pretty much deal with them for now on. I've made 2 appts with 2 different dr. I have an appt on the 28th and another on the 4th. I am honestly scared of the surgery.. I am scared something will go terribly wrong. While pregnant I was told that fibroids may not effect my pregnancy and that I had a strong cervix and nothing to worry about. That only a few people go into preterm labor. I am the statistic and I feel like I could be again with the surgery. I know that may sound crazy but it is true. However, in the same sense it is selfish for me to try and bring another child into the world knowing what I know (what happened in the last pregnancy). I will more than likely have the surgery... will know more once I speak with the doctors. Enough about me Healing congrats on you HSG report. God is going to continue to bless you and get you through this. Ladies just have faith he is going to make sure we all have children we just have to have patience. Best of luck and lots of baby dust. ↑
Name: Joker | Date: Feb 24th, 2008 3:46 PM
Thanks healing.. I heard the pain is more like cramps but just the thought of what they have to do makes me very nervous and more tense, my mind has already made up that is going to hurt and I would just rather not deal with it. I'm going to ask my doc for a pill he will more than likely tell me no so I will just show up drunk.. :-) just joking. I will suck it up and just do it! KM I am truly sorry you are in this situation. I know exactly where you..you feel like you are in limbo and while everyone else around you gets on with their life you are stuck in that place until you make a decision and once that decision is made you don't really feel any better because with either decision you are still uncertain you will be able to reach your goal..I was there..so were the other ladies here and many of us or still dealing with the uncertainty of our decisions, we are still waiting for the OK to TTC or like myself trying and not getting the results we want. I can tell you one thing, I know (not personally) many women on this site and others who have had the myo and went on to have successful pregnancies. I don't know what my future holds but I can tell you one thing, I don't worry anymore about the fibroids causing any problems if I do become pregnant. Just think of your uterus the same way you would if you broke a leg..or both legs. Your legs would heal and you would be able to walk and run again, it is the same with your uterus, you get it repaired and it will function like it should. I know comparing our uterus to a broken leg is not the same but I'm just trying to show you the body is an amazing thing, it heals itself and sometimes it just needs a little help from doctors to function properly. I know how scared of the surgery you must be. I was there too..I was only 26 when I lost my little girl and I came face to face with how cruel life is..there I was lost, broken, and had to deal with having the surgeries and to be quiet honest.. I speak for myself only...I was not afraid to die on the operating table should something go wrong...I was more afraid of losing my uterus and living a life knowing I would not be able to have a child..and I don't know for certain but I think that might be what your fear is..and other women. The only thing I told myself to get through it and deal with the surgery is I would rather have the surgery than try again and lose or not have the surgery and not try but live each day tempted and bitter. I don't know if what I write makes any sense when it is read..it makes sense in my mind and I only hope that when it is read it comes across as how I mean it. KM, please continue to post, we will be here to listen to you and support you with any decision you make. Take Care. ↑
