We are all here for the loss of our children. Some of us are beginning again, and some of us are trying, some of us are just trying to cope. We support each other through every moment of life now, maybe with a little help from Sandwaby ( stands for Sad and wanting a baby) or the rest of us in SANDHABY ( sick and having a baby) . And now we even have a STANDHABY ( stressed and having a baby) . All of us have come a long way !!! We have become more then support....we have become friends. So either way, come on in and join us...everyone is welcome!!! ↓
hi all! i hope everyone is doing well. it's been fairly quiet, and i hope it's b/c everyone is busy with good stuff. BRYANDI - my bday is 12/08 so ember and i will be close in bdays! STACY - i am no dr but from what you say it doesn't sound like it's a molar pregnancy. i think i mentioned before that what the tech and you saw on the scan could have been an adhesion that has been cleaned out. as for you not feeling normal, that could have been the infection you think you had. either way, i am hoping we continue to hear good news from you. LILY - have you tested? SHANA - how are those headaches? CLAUDS, MISSP, SHABNAM - how are the new mommies and their beautiful babies doing? SMMOM - i don't know how you find the time to do everything you do and still talk to us. it's awesome! JSTALEY and SARAH - still missing! LEXY - i am guessing you're busy w/school and haven't gotten a chance to write. MAYBE - where did you go? LISA - are you ok, hun? how are you feeling? are you back at work? am i missing anyone? as for me, still very worried but fortunately i made an appt w/the dr. for mon. to keep my mind at ease. God willing it will be good news for me and for all of us. i no longer have any symptoms, so i am really worried. it could just be the fear taking over and i hope that's what it is, not anything bad, God willing. continuously praying for us all. hope that you MIA ladies chime in soon. after LISA's car accident it kinda worries me wondering where you all are and i pray that you are all well, God willing. ↑
JUDI....Howdy girl !!! I understand your fear....but it is also normal for all those pesky first tri symptoms to leave around 12 weeks.....you are starting the second tri at the end of your 13th week....and so this is the tri you get to enjoy !!! Sodont worry to much. Are you able to get into the dr before your next scheduled visit??? It is so hard to wait a whole month to wait and see bean is ok !!! I am going to second what you said...when all you aldies dont check in I get worried. I dont know how I find the time either Judi, and it hasnt been as much lately ladies and I apologize for that. I like to be here to support you all and anyone new that comes. Because I know how much it meant to me, and still does to have you all. It gets you through one of the toughest and darkest times in our lives, and with us holding eachother up...its important to be there !!! SO anyways....CLAUDS and MISSP......how are those babies doing??? Have you got the hang of bfing yet??? SHAB....I love that pic of Shireen in her seat....keep them coming girl. How are things going?? JILL...I am praying all is well with you and baby and your MOM. Please check in. SARAH9...I am totally worried about you. Everyone else....where the heck are ya !!! Oh..BRYANDI....I forgot to ask...hows the night time potty training going??? As for me...Carson had a check up today and is doign good. He got shots and his little legs hurt. But he is all the way up to 10 lbs !!!! Big boy these days. Addison is pretty much all the way potty trained ( with a few little accidents every once in awhile) and lexi is a 7 yr old going on 15 sassy mouthed preteen !!!! I dont even know if that does justice for what she is !!! AAhhh...the joys of motherhood! And a little update....for those of you that asked...Jourdan is at this moment in Italy...big brat !! I have totally told her how jelous i am of that !!! She is doing well and ttc again. I am praying she makes that healthy baby this month. She so deserves it. And ERIN......what is going on with you. Are you doing iVF?? OK ladies...I hope you all have a good weekend. ↑
still pretty quiet! SMMOM - fortunately, my dr is seeing me every 2 weeks instead of 4 and has told me i can come in anytime i want. my next appt was supposed to be the 20th but i asked if i could come in earlier and they put me in for the 13th. this morning i woke up and started crying out of fear of losing this baby, God forbid. i have been trying to be very strong but for some reason early this morning i wasn't so strong. dh held me and told me everything would be fine so that was comforting. i am definitely trying to enjoy, but i just can't wait until i have my baby healthy and in my arms, God willing. as for carson, he is getting big! you haven't sent any other pictures. i forget who said they were on facebook, i am on as sarah ahmed ali if you want to look me up and add me as a friend. you must have felt terrible to have the dr put shots in his little legs, it would have broken my heart to see that! yaay on addison being almost fully potty trained, good for her! and you're too funny about lexi. anyhow... i should get going. everyone else please post!!! ↑
hi guys...no testing necessary for me, AF showed her ugly face right on time. I was less upset this month than last as I had absolutely no symptoms and was expecting AF. What I don't understand is why it is taking so long to get pregnant this time around. I say "so long" and it has only been since June since I had the d and c, but usually I just have sex when I'm ovulating and it happens, so this is frustrating! Maybe it is my age (33) or my husband's (43). But I am much more accepting now since I had my daughter. Judi, I'm sending good thoughts your way and waiting to hear about your great appointment. Shelly's right, the second trimester is a lot more comfortable, once you are over your "fear time" that is. Judi, I'm about to find you on Facebook so you'll get a message with my full name on in a minute! Shelly, I hope Carson is feeling better soon so you can relax a little. The newborn issues can go on can't they? All our new mums, check in and let us know how things are going. I remember those first months and I had so many issues br'feeding, but I got through them all and managed to feed her for 10 months, so hang in there. I have been MIA as the social scene has been hectic lately and also having computer issues....Shelly summed up the messages to everyone for me also......please check in. ↑
oh KATHARINE - sorry about AF. i am glad you have more patience and acceptance this month. i think that's what really gets us through life - patience and acceptance... what else can we really do? i realize there are few things in life we actually have control over. you will get pg soon, God willing, keep them fingers crossed! i am certainly crossing mine for you. btw, remind me how you are keeping track of O? maybe you should bd more than just around O time? ↑
Smmom, thanks for starting the new thread! Much nicer!
Judi, I am sure that your appt will show nothing but great news
including the news that you are out of the horrible symptoms phase and
into the easy and comfortable stage! It sounds like dh is coming around
more and more huh? Lillysmummy sorry af showed again. It will happen when
the time is right, I hope that is sooner rather than later for you!
Smmom we aren't working on the nighttime potty training anymore. DD asked to wear
undies to bed tonight and I told her that she could wear undies to bed tonight instead
of pull ups so we will see what the morning brings. Sounds like things are good at your house!
Way to go Addison w/ the potty training! LOL about Lexi!! She sounds like she could be a handful
till she is 22! Stacy, I am sorry that you are having such a confusing time right now
with your body and what is going on! I hope that the worst is over and it is just getting better
now. Let us know what the blood test says when you get the results. It is tough to have conflicting
information from two different "professionals". You don't really know who to believe. Keep us posted
on what you find out. Erin, where are you? It has been a while since you piped up. Are you and dh
trying to relax a bit more about ttc? So ladies I am psyched!! After a 73 hour week (Monday thru Saturday)
and a couple hours this morning I am officially clear. I have got all of my work done and three whole days ahead of the deadline!!!!!!!! Yea me! Now I can relax and spend more time at home before Ember comes along.
Today we packed away the lawnmower and a lot of the kids "summer" toys and rearranged the basement. I am pooped
because I stayed up much later than usual in order to get my work done so I need some good old zzz's! i will chat with
you all again sooN! ↑
Hey all - all ok here - still waiting - but i'm getting used to it...took my own hpt - negative - i'm feeling good about it most likely NOT being a molar at this point...As far as af - just praying - had a glass of wine out at dinner w-dh yesterday (70 degrees in NYC in October - I had to go out :-) - just trying to relax and hope my body does the same...JUDI I'm sure you'll be fine...enjoy the disappearing symptoms...Have you bought one of those baby heart monitors? I don't know too much about em but i'm sure the other ladies could tell u - I've heard they're good for piece of mind between appointments...KATHERINE - nice to actually know your name - sorry about af showing up!!! I think we both need a little patience at this point...June really isn't that much time...although I completely understand that it feels that way. SHELLY - Good to hear your kids are all good - Lexi sounds like the 8-year olds in my class - but I love them and their little attitudes...they keep me laughing all day...BRYANDI - nice to hear works done...deadlines met...hope all is well with u and you're feeling good at this point...CLAUDIA_MISSP what's new with the boys? ↑
hi girls! im writing this with one hand because the other one is winding malachi - a bit unsuccessfully admittedly!! but i will never get chance to write to you girls otherwise. we have had quite a stressfull week or 2 but today is looking better and i finally got a sleep which makes all the difference. I cant remember what i wrote in the previous posts, but basically, after the first 5 days of malachi constantly wanting to feed and i mean every waking minute, and not sleeping for longer than an hour, th midwife confirmed that hed lost 17oz, and we had to be readmitted to hospital. I was so scared that they were finally going to find something wrong with him, but thankfully no, it turned out to be my problem. They said that a combination of loosing a lot of blood during the birth and not having any sleep for well over a week, plus the exhausting birth, had meant my milk wasnt replenishing itself properly and he was starving hungry all the time, despite it looking like he was feeding too much. So we started to top up his feed with some formula and he has now gone back up over his birth weight. He had gone down to 6lb12oz but at the last weigh which was last weds he was 8lb3oz. Im hoping at the next on he'll have gone over the 9lb mark. He certainly looks like he has! Anyway, so much is happening with him every day, i just feel overwhelmed sometimes. Warning for those of you expecting your first one, you may be very tearfull for weeks after. I know i have been. Its not because im sad, its just because sometimes i feel so helpless and useless and other times i feel so happy and proud of him...the up and downs are something i didnt prepare myself for...but i think im getting there and defintly having family around to help has been a life saver. i just wanted to share that with you girls who'll be going thru this soon hopefully. JUDI - you must b terrified and i know how you must feel when the symptoms ease up your supposed to be relieved and instead us girls worry ourselves to death and think the worst, i was exactly like how you are, and i hope it gives you some hope that everything turned out fine for me so it will for you too.. remember that the odds are far greater that everythings fine and normal and that your baby is growing normally. keep praying and stay positive chuck. Smmom - i really dont know how you get the time to check in so much either, you must have this whole motherhood thing down to a fine art, whereas us first timers are struggling a bit still! Im glad carsons a bit better though. It must be hard to juggle 3 kids! Lillymummy im so sorry about af again, what a bummer. So this is th 3rd or 4rth cycle since your d and c? Th first time i fell pregnant it took 5 mths and after the d+c it took 3mths, so dont give up just yet, its such a precarious business getting pregnant and it allways takes longer than we expect or want it too and its so frustrating. I remember those 3 cycles until i fell pg again were th longest in my life. Hang in there chuck and good luck for this cycle. Bryandi - well done on getting all your work finished! That must be a weight off your shoulders. Now you can concentrate on your ever growing bump! Stacyr - i hear your frustration and i hope it all works itself out soon. Hang in thre. A big hello to my fellow new moms clauds and shabnam, hope you two are coping alright! Ok well Malachi is stirring and he may scream any second, he has enormous lungs - i keep wondering if it was those steroid injections at 25wks that developed them faster, or if he takes after my side of th family and loves to sing - well we will find out with time i guess! In other news, my dh has finally got himself a job, its terrible money, but its something and its full time and i keep telling him its all good experience and not to worry that its minimum wage - it all helps get us a bit more stability and its a big step in the right direction. I would be proud of him whatever he does as a job, and thats what matters i guess. Right, hes definitly waking up so il have to go. Il try to post again on weds after hes been weighed again and let you know how hes doing. In the meantime keep smiling girls and lots of babydust! x x x ↑
hi ladies... i'm back from my appt and praise God, all is well. however, i am a little concerned about the hb. 2 weeks ago it was in the 160s and today it was about 145. i am going to make my echocardiogram appt today, hopefully it will show nothing but good news, God willing. STACY - keep waiting... good things come to those who wait and God willing you will get good news... i am glad you are enjoying this nutty weather here in NY! SMMOM - where you at? MISSP - that's some good typing w/one hand, haha. congrats on your dh getting a job! you have to start somewhere and something is better than nothing. he'll work up the ladder soon enough, God willing. thanks for chiming in. BRYANDI - so glad you are done before your deadline. sounds like a long and exhausting week for you and i am glad it's over so you have time to relax. where is everyone else? it's actually been longer than ever before for all the ladies to start chiming in. just a quick "hello all is well" would be great to hear. or at least tell me your email addresses so we can stay in touch. i feel a bond w/you guys that i have w/no one else and i would like to continue the friendship. so holla back you MIA ladies! ↑
Missp, yay on dh getting a job. It is always tough starting a new job because you
almost always have to start at the bottom. Even if he doesn't stay at this job for
long he will have some experience that will help him get a better paying job in time.
It probably makes him feel better to be able to help out a bit financially. That is very scary
that poor malachi was almost starving. I am glad they figured it out and now you are all right
on track again! Maybe once you get rested up you will produce enough milk to sustain him? Judi I
am glad that your appt went well. can you remember if you had had anything extra sugary or
caffenated before your appt 2 weeks ago? Embers heartrate fluctuated between 140 and 150 every appt,
but when I had my appt after the glucose test her heartrate was all the way up to 165! The doctor just laughed
and said she probably had a good sugar high going. I think their little bodies are sensitive to slight changes in
our diet. Did you ask the doc if she/he thought it was normal for that much fluctuation? Jstay, Shana where the
heck are you girls anyway? ↑
Hi guys just checking in. Miss P I had an identical sistuation with Lily, I had to supplemement her with formula because my poor bod couldn't keep up with demand (even though she was on me like whilte on rice 24 hrs a day drinking)Long story short is that I pumped and pumped and eventually my supply almost caught up and I successfully bf's for 10 months and you will too if you choose to! I also hear you re the tearfulness, it happens to everyone. Everything just feels so precious and scary and wonderful. Stacyr, it's you and me babe and BFPs will happen sooner rather than later for us. I'm just over the thinking obout it to be quite frank! Judi Sarah, I use OPK tests to see when I "o" as I don't find the CM method useful and the temperature taking would do my head in, escpecially with a little one. I'm lucky if I can make it to the shower when I first wake up, much less take my temp. Baby dust to all and Judi is right, a holla would be nice MIA ladies! ↑
Hi ladies...just a brief moment to check in. I am with you MISSP....typing one handed is something i have grown used to !!! Carson had his 2 month check up....he weighs in at 10 lbs 6 oz. Big boy these days...but not tall at all yet...only 21 inches.... It definitely takes a lot of adjustment to get used to life with a new baby. They are quite demanding of our time. JUDI...I am so glad your dr will see you every couple of weeks...that will especially help you through your scare time !!! Kath..... I am so sorry that nasty witch showed up....keep the faith, it will happen for you !!!!!! STACY, I am glad signs keep showing you no molar....that means you can ttc again soon. Hopefully your af will show soon.if not talk to youdr. There is a pill they can give you to start it. BRYANDI........So glad you are over this nasty peroid at work !!!! JUDI...... it is normal for baby's hr to go up and down. It tends to slow when they are sleeping and the further along you get it slows. Talk to your dr about it, I would think if they had a concern about it they would have talked to you about it right away. So I think little baby was sleeping. Another thing you can do is call your dr office and have them do a hr check on baby again. As for me..... dh and I are finishing our basement, adding a bedroom and all that. So been busy with that and seems to me I have been running a zillion arrands. So, I am wiped out at night. Then
I have my niece on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. So I am tired then also. Well I hope all you mia ladies are ok.....check in please. ↑
MISSP - Great to hear from you and hear that you and Malachi are doing well...I completely understand the dh situation - I'm currently supporting mine through school while he gets his degree - I think it is killing him that I am the one paying the bills while he's in school - I just couldn't deal with him stressing over work (a minimum wage job) and college at the same time - I told him it was better he gets the degree...But you know men - they're all a little machismo... don't like to look at the long run...all about the moment...like yours and this stepping stone...Please update us tomorrow after your baby's dr aptmt! Hope all is well...Thanks too for the heads up on first time motherhood - I hope i'll be there soon...JUDI - great to hear all is well and things went ok at the doctors...KATHRINE - I feel you - I can't go crazy anymore...each week new drama - i'm just gunna let what happens happen...SHELLY - he must be so beautiful - love chubby ones!! Hope all is well...BRYANDI - How u feeling? Hope all is well w-u and belly :-) As for me NEW DAY NEW DRAMA I went to dr today for my weekly blood test...she hadn't received blood results from last week till today...Anyways - October 1st HCG 3.6 then Oct. 7th HCG 10.4 - my levels are going UP - took my blood again - of course - i'm a human pincushion...basically she looked at my records from the d & c and said they looked good - like no molar - so now she's thinking that this could be a VERY new pregnancy - (about 2 - 2 1/2 weeks - I started using condoms on Oct 2nd when she told me to so sometime around the 30th which I had off from work...) she still hasn't completely ruled out molar - we need to wait and see the levels...She seemed on a much more positive outlook though after seeing the d & c and a new scan that they did when I went to pick up the papers...they wanted to see what was left inside - and they found nada - so Dr says that if molar they should have seen something - and this early pg you wouldn't see anything so nada was good....So again - I wait - I've either got cancer or I gotta get ready to be a mommy - My mind can't even handle this - I'm scared to get my hopes up (because the alternative is soooo bad) but i'm excited at the same time...so I wait - AGAIN...we'll see next tuesday - I pray they keep going up.... ↑
STACY..... First we are all praying for your levels to go down.....and they did....so now we all pray for them to go up.!!!! YEY...exciting...you could be pg again!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so praying for you, and crossing everything possible. Tuesday will bring us good news...I just know it !!! ↑
Hi guys, Stacy I am crossing my fingers too that this is the beginning of a pregnancy. Lisa are you still reading? Let us know how you are. I had a laugh at myself before, here I am saying "how long" it is taking me to get preg after the D and C In June, I checked my diary and I have only had 3 periods since then - lots of doctors actually advise you wait 3 cycles before trying again for different reasons. So perhaps I will have luck in the next several months - I do hope so. I was actually thinking before, in the next 3 months I have a wedding, then another wedding where I am a bridesmaid, my birthday and then Christmas and new Years - all of these are occaisons I like to celebrate with champagne (I am always strictly teetotal when pregnant) so perhaps it's as well if I'm not pregnant for those months. I'm just kidding as you all know I wish more than anything to be pregnant again but it made me smile to think of the champers. I was very strict with myself last month too and literally had one glass of wine the whole month and popping vitamins the whole time, thinking that if I was stricter I might be luckier with ovulating closer to day 14. I got a positve o test on day 16 though so it didn't seem to make much difference! Perhaps I have to be kinder to myself. Judi, thanks for the advice about bding at different times of the month - I do, but I know baby making is only going to occur at the right time :) ie at ovulation. Do you guys know what days you ovulate on? (Not everyone ovulates on day 14 or 14 days before AF). If so let me know. I have been pregnant twice this year ovulating on day 18 and both times I miscarried and I wonder if there is a link. Let me know! ↑
SMMOM – good to hear that Carson is becoming a big boy! I hear ya on being tired. I don’t have kids yet not am I babysitting a newborn and I tend to get tired. Props to you on handling all that and still having time for us. BRYANDI – you spoke to all of us but didn’t tell us anything that is going on with you! How’s ember? What’s next for you in terms of the pg? To answer your question, I don’t remember having anything high in sugar or caffeine at my last appt. Fortunately, the dr. said 145 is perfect (but she uses words like “perfect”, “gorgeous”, etc. all the time, haha… it’s nice). I have my first echo on the 20th and I emailed that dr. to tell her the fluctuation and she said that seems fine. I am about to hit 15 weeks, God willing and that’s the week when our last angel is thought to have passed (although we didn’t find out until week 17). Despite that I am being very optimistic and not only praying that things go well and we get out healthy baby, but I am starting to believe it too. God willing! LILY – you’re funny… I know what you mean about bd-ing around O time, but I have heard that opks are not that easy to read and don’t give a + until after O at which time it is usually too late, no? That’s why I was suggesting bd-ing all the time around O time. I temp-ed, which was not fun since I didn’t always remember, but according to my chart I O-ed on day 20 this time. Either way, I am no expert so what do I know, hah. keep trying and I am glad you are looking at the positives from every angle. STACY – this is so confusing. Although I am going to pray that you are pg, I want you to keep from getting disappointed so don’t get too excited, but keep thinking happy and positive thoughts! Oh and keep us posted. Ok, we’re still missing a bunch of people! ↑
wow stacy, one thing after another. I truly hope that this is not a Molar and is a new pregnancy for you! Good luck and keep us posted. I can't wait to hear from you on Tuesday! kath, I think some people just ovulate later than others. I don't believe that it means you will miscarry. It is only 4 days later than what is considered "normal" so I would guess it is just bad luck and bad combo of egg & sperm. I don't really know what day I ovulate. The opk's just confuse me. Tabby was a surprise, but with Rory, the two miscarriages and now Ember we just bd every day from day 8 or 9 to day 22 (and boy was I sick of it by the end) and with all 4 pregnancies it only took 2 mths to concieve them. (Rory was a special case because we tried for him for 3 mths and didn't succeed so the doc put me on Clomid and 2 mths later we were pg, however when we were trying for him the other three months we only bd around or on the 14th day and then whenever it happened the rest of the month. ) I don't know if that helps at all. Judi, that is good that the doc didn't think anything of the fluctuation. I am keeping everything crossed for you for the next 2 weeks!!! What is an echo and what are they looking for when they do one? I am not familiar with that term. So today I had a very uncomfortable day. I went out to lunch with a few friends from work and about an hour and a half after eating I had this awful cramp run across my stomach that lasted about 10 seconds at the most, but had me doubled over in discomfort. It happened again about 10 minutes later and again and again. I tried to keep working, but when someone stopped me in the hall to ask me a question I started to feel really dizzy and so I decided I better go home. I didn't have anymore cramps on the 45 minute ride home, but not long after I walked in the door to the house I had another. They lasted from about 1:30pm to approx 5:30pm, but the ones at home were further apart and didn't occur unless I was up moving around (the ones at work came even though I was sitting down) even though I didn't have another strong pang after 5:30 my tummy still felt kind of achey and tighter than usual until about now, 8pm I am starting to feel more normal again. Is this Braxtion Hicks? This will be my third baby and I have no clue what a contraction feels like....I thought Braxton Hicks were supposed to be painless.... I wasn't gassy or anything, so I have ruled out the thought that the food caused it. We eat at that restaurant a lot and I eat nachos all pregnancy long because they are my favorite so I truly don't think it was caused by my lunch. If they start back up again tomorrow I might call my doctor to see what she thinks. Otherwise not much else going on for us here. We are just waiting paitently for December 10th to come. We are going to start doing our Christmas shopping and getting the house ready for the winter soon because I won't feel like doing any of it later in November and with a c-section won't be any help for the first couple of weeks after Ember's birth. We have a lot to do so I don't think I get to relax quite yet! ↑
Hello girls, I’ve been away for a while, sorry. I’ve had the busiest time at work! It was manic! It has finally cooled down a bit. Also we’ve been trying our best this month!
I’ve just scanned through the posts very quickly. I’ll have more time tomorrow to catch up with all of you.
It’s only day 15, I’m knackered and I’ve been already feeling my PMS symptoms for few days (like: lower back ache, tingly nipples) I feel so empty, disappointed, devastated.. you name it.. because this is my last month before the laparoscopy and hysteroscopy. I guess I should be looking at it positively, that this may sort something out, but I can’t help to look at it as result of our tragic failure. I just don’t understand, how you can get pregnant twice on a first try and then just long empty NOTHING!!! It’s been now 18months! January will be officially 2 years since I got pregnant last pregnant. People fret after just 2, 3 cycles… what do they know??? I fear we will be a very sad childless couple and it’s not what I’ve imagined it be like at all. I’ve tried so hard, just everything.. potions, acupuncture, meditation and hypnotherapy.. I eat well, exercise, take supplements, don’t smoke, drink, I've got perfect weight, I’m not even a coffee drinker….Tell me WHY??? MB ↑
Hi Ladies!!! This is a quick post to let you all know that Shireen and I are still alive and kicking. I'm sorry I've been away. with the real estate market we have in montreal im in the process of losing everything I own. Thats the gamble when both dh and I work in real estate. banks are not even approving qualified buyers. (how the hell are we supposed to sell houses and make a living)??? We've put all our properties up for sale, even though we are losing thousands on them. No choice! It's stressful but I console myself. I have my little angel and thats pretty much all I care about right now. I hope you are all well. I keep each one of you in my prayers. Love you all. ↑
Hey ladies, Just checking in while my little man is sleeping. He's OK, we had to go back to the hospital though because he was having trouble with his breathing but he is much better now and putting on weight. I'm OK - healing slowly. OK I've written up my birth story which I would like to share with you so I'll post that now and in the meantime while Tyrell is asleep I catch up on your posts and if you have listed your email I send pics or if you want email me at claudia_fearon at yahoo dot co dot uk and I'll send you some pics. xx ↑
Monday evening I started to get blurred vision and felt as though I could see flashing lights at the corner of my eyes. Before I knew it was like the room was full of clouds and I had a massive headache. I decided to call the hospital who advised me to come in to get my blood pressure checked as this could be the problem. I waited for half an hour for my husband to get home and arrived at the hospital where the baby was monitored. He wasn’t moving much at first but after a glass of cold water that changed. My pressure was checked and I was told this was fine but they wanted to run blood tests to check my organ functions (I guess as I was a few days over due) and I admitted to stay overnight while my blood pressure was monitored for a few hours. I was not happy at all about staying in hospital overnight when they had said everything was ok and my headache and blurred had gone. It also meant that chris had to take the next day off work even though the baby wasn’t here yet or showing any signs of coming. Anyway I relunctanctly stayed the night couldn't sleep much because of my big bump and not being in my own bed with my husband.
I woke up early that morning feeling lightly crampy like my period would start but thought nothing of it because I had been feeling like that for the past few weeks even with b/hicks sometimes and nothing happened. Chris arrived to take me home and I had my appointment to discuss an induction the next day as I was 4 days overdue. I then had the urge to go to the toilet so I did and then threw up. Then all of a sudden without warning or any build up the pain hit me and I had an huge contraction, then just as it was wearing off another one started and then another one.... I was in such pain and was just crawling around on the floor. My husband kept saying let me call a nurse but I kept saying no not yet this cant be it. Labour does not start like this there has to be build up and I haven't even had a show and there is no break between my contractions they eased a bit but never went away completely. I thought I was just having a major cramp which would pass cos the baby in an arkward position.
I started to feel what I can only describe has the baby moving down further. I paced the room in pain and pressed the help button as soon as the nurse saw me she said she I'm getting the midwife. The midwife arrived asked me questions about the pain and done an internal exam at which point I was only 1-2 cm and 100% effaced. I thought god how will I do this, if couldn't take the pain at 1-2cm. At which point was scared I kept saying to my husband I am so rubbish I really thought I could do this but I cant. They put the moniter on me and asked me to lie cos they had to moniter the baby for a while. I couldn't lie down as the back pain I got was too much and I had to throw up every few minutes. I wanted my ten machine but didnt have any of my maternity things as after all I had only come in for a headache and blurred vision, I never imagined this.
The midwife decided to take me to the delivery suite as my contractions were coming so fast. I kept saying this cant be it, there is no break between my contractions, you are meant to have a break, where is my break! When in the delievery suite I was given gas and air it worked for well enough for them to mointer the baby and they said he was ok. I called my mum and she said was making arrangements to come up and got my husband to text everyone. I become addicted to the gas and I remember the thing you put in your mouth on to breathe the gas through coming off and my husband trying to take it away from me to put it back on, I grabbed on to it for dear life and looked at him like "do not make me hurt you GIVE IT BACK!
Anyway my contractions were still coming strong and fast and I was examined again just an hour later and found to be at 7cm, from 1- 7cm in an hour! Then the mother of all contractions hit me and I felt the urge to push. I started screaming epidural, epidural, epidural now! The midwfe said that there was no point because by the time it started to work it would be too late and the baby would be here. She tried to pursuade me to let them examine me again. The only thing that came out my mouth was "noooooooooo epidural now!" So they gave it to me. It was hell putting it in staying completely still during the contractions. She was right though as there was no pain releif with the next contraction yet but I let her examine me and yes I was 10 cm and needed to start pushing with the next contraction. She said she was going to break my waters but when she tried to she said there was nothing there and if I remember when they broke. I had no memory of my waters breaking. The next contraction came and I remember suddenly not hearing his heat beat and it seemed like an eternity before the next beat came back. I remember looking up at my midwife and I saw her face drop which terrified me. She run and pressed the emergency button. I turned to my husband and saw the fear on his face and I started crying in fear of my son's life now. All of a sudden about 15 peple were in the room with me and my husband was lost among all these people surrounding me. I was being wheeled down the corridor in theatre for an emergency c-section but they decided as I just given an epidural (so thank god I took it) even though it wasn't totally working yet so they gave me local anaesthetic as well, with a episiotomy cut and let me push with the ventose because they needed to get him out as quickly as possible he heart rate when from 138 to just 36. My husband arrived in the hospital gear and with the next two contractions and a hell of a lot of pushing I felt his head come out, the midwife whispered into my ears its gonna be a girl and I said not its a boy. I heard them say the cord was wrapped around his neck which they removed first then I was allowed to push out his body and he begun to cry. My husband then said its boy you right you right! I HELD MY LITTLE BOY'S warm body before they took him away to be examined and they said he was ok.
So just like that 3hrs and 24mins after my first contraction I was a mum, thank god it happened the way it did and Chris stayed home that day or he probably would have missed it and I would have had him at home on my own! ↑
BRYANDI - that's terrible! how are you feeling now? did you find out what the pain was? it's so amazing that you have given birth twice and are pg w/your third and each time has been different for you. i hope you are feeling better! keep us posted. MAYBE - i am sorry you are feeling like this. you are not going to be a childless couple. i know plenty of people who try for a while and go on to have their babies. i pray you don't have to wait much longer and who knows, maybe the laporoscopy is what you need to get this baby making show on the road. praying for you! SHAB - thanks for writing in. good to hear that you and shireen are doing well, God bless. sorry to hear about your houses and the housing crises, but i am glad you are focusing on the positives... your beautiful baby! CLAUDS - what a lovely story! it's crazy to think that we had MISSP having this 3-4 day long labor and yours not even 4 hours! i am so glad all worked out well and that you are healing. i'll email you soon so i can see pictures. are you facebook? i know we discussed this before, but i don't remember who is on what site. if you are on facebook... look me up... sarah ahmed ali.
as for me ladies, i am trying to remain positive and optimistic, but i am still scared. BRYANDI, an echocardiogram is when the baby's heart rate is monitored. they couldn't figure out what happened w/my last pg but they speculates that maybe my super strong antibodies crossed the placenta and slowed the baby's heart rate until our baby died. so now they want to monitor the heart to make sure the baby's heart is working well. i am getting super concerned b/c i feel like my belly isn't getting bigger and i know i shouldn't worry about having anymore symptoms being that i entered the 2nd tri, but i want the symptoms to keep me sane. ms, please hit me so i know baby is doing fine. i am confident that baby is fine, God willing, but i don't really know. i am just praying and asking everyone to pray! you guys too... lets continue praying for each other! SMMOM - where you at carson mama? STACY - any news? LEXI - you around? ERIN - you reading? JSTALEY and SHANA - it's about time you guys write to us please! LISA - you too, chime in, tell us you are doing better! LILY - how are you? busy bd-ing? MISSP - hope malachi is keeping you busy. did i miss anyone? ↑
Can anyone tell me what HGC levels are supposed to be? Also If they were at 10.4 on Oct 7th when should a HPT come out positive? I'm really confused...whats the longest it can take to double and still have a healthy baby? ↑
Hey ladies, I've just been checking up on you guys, I hope I haven't missed out anything. BRYANDI so its Dec 10th is your big day, oooooooooo I cant wait so exciting! STACYR I am so sorry for everything that you have been going through with the molar pregnancy scare etc. I really hope that this is the start of a new pregnancy. I think on average it takes hcg 3 days to double. Check the what level hcg needs to be at on the pg test you are using on the instructions and that should give you some idea of when it will show if you assume that your hcg level will double in 2-3 days, good luck honey! LISA honey how are you doing? Let us know how your app goes at the end oct, I am praying for you! MAYBE I know it will be disappointing for you if you have the lap op but I am praying if you do have it, you will end up getting pregnant very quickly afterwards hun like so many people I know who have had it. SMMOM glad to hear Carson is putting on weight and all is well. JUDI your nearly there, I know it must be so hard right now. I am praying so hard for you. I'm glad they are taking better care of you this time and keeping an eye on you. SHANAT nice to hear form you sorry about the headaches. When are you due again? LILYMUMMY sorry af showed up honey! Hopefully I pray this month will be the one. SHABNAM nice to hear from you. I'm so sorry to hear of your situation. I know it is so hard right now with the market the way it is it. How is little Shireen doing ,is her cold gone? SARAH9, JSTALEY and anyone else we haven't heard from in a while please check in. OK I'm off to send pictures email to anyone that I have your email addresses. I'm not on face book etc, haven't had a chance to set one up but if you send me your email I will happily send pics. Take care ladies, I'll check in again soon, need to change and feed Tyrell soon and then try and get some sleep. ↑
CLAUDS --- I loved the story. It sounded scary at one time, but it was amazingly fast! You are very lucky. I’m glad Tyrell is ok. Thanks for your support, I feel a bit better now. Still very sad though. I feel like I avoid people lately. I can’t stand people’s questions and even if they know, it’s awful to see their pity in their eyes. KATHERINE --- I’m sorry it has happened this month. I hope it will happen for us soon and we can create another batch of pregnant ladies here. JUDI --- You are in my prayers! I’m sure everything is ok, unfortunately we’ve been stripped off the innocence and naivety, so it’s a bit harder. But it won’t be long before you’ll be telling us your birth story. STACY --- I wish I could advise, but I know nothing of HCG levels, I’ve miscarried twice so early I never even make it to the doctors. :o( But I hope you’ll very soon know where you stand and I wish so much this is going to turn into a healthy pregnancy. SHABNAM --- sorry, you’ve fallen into hard times for now. I hope this will change for the better soon. We’ve just fixed our mortgage few months ago, it was such a blow, finding out we are to pay so much more. We were thinking of upgrading, but it’s out of question unfortunately. Everyone else I’ve missed out.. All the best! LISA --- I wonder how you are doing, whether you’ve found anything out yet. --- Weekend, huraayy! ↑
Wow...I have a lot to catch up on. OK....LILLY....your body may take a few months to get back on track...and think of it as preparing itself to carry the perfect bean in there safely. JUDI..... I just know this is your healthy bean./..so stay positive and keep those prayers going. Let us know how beaney baby's echo goes. BRYANDI.....what you are feeling is BH contractions....they HURT...and the more kids you ahve had...the worse they hurt. With both Addison and Carson...they hurt so much and I got them so often I had no clue when actual labor hit. Just time them when you get them alot and close together. Unfortunately...nothing really helps with them... but drink lots of water..that can help them to slow or be farther apart. With Carson...they started at 17wks...so i had them the whole time. MAYBE...... I am sorry af seems to be making her way back....I am happy though that you are getting the lapo.....there is something going on that needs to be straightened out. It isnt that you are doing somehting wrong...or that you are a failure...you WILL get pregnant...but there is something stopping it from happening right now. SO very soon you will know and it will bring some relief for you and exciting times ttc knowing it can actually happen !!! SHAB...I am sorry about your properties,,,,,the economy is so awful right now...and I think that is a global statement !!!! CLAUDS....I emailed you.....beautiful baby !!!!! STACY.....HCG levels are supposed to double to triple every 2 days for a new and healthy pg. The levels usually show up on a pg test at about 15 or higher. But again...it depends on the brand. When are you getting them tested again?? I am praying for you. OK...Carson is poohing and I need to clean my house.....LISA, SARAH9, AND JILL.... ↑
