Name: PreciousBaby19 | Date: May 14th, 2008 4:00 PM
Jackass....god...So yesterday I spoke to my dad for the first time in 2 years. A 10 minute convesation of complete and utter akwardness., guilt, and grasshoppers. He honestly just can't let the past go....everyone makes mistakes...so why can't he just give t a fucking rest and move on. I already told him i wanted to mend fences..but he just wont let it go. And i told my mom and shes like...just say your peice and move on..i he can't do it then just let him suffer because i'm not going to feel guilty about the choice i made..Its just really hard. we were always the closest...my dad and i. Now it just seems....like he will never udnerstand and never move on..and that sucks..because i eally miss him. It seems like he cares but....at the same time i'm not sure he does. ↓
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Name: Amanda19 | Date: May 14th, 2008 5:52 PM
I'm sorry! That sucks! What are you guys having differences about? ↑
Name: PreciousBaby19 | Date: May 18th, 2008 9:31 AM
well he messed around with my schooling, and kicked me in ad out of the house...and he yelled and constantly threw my life down the drain...mostly its because i eft america.... ↑
Name: guccigal87 | Date: May 20th, 2008 12:20 PM
you know... i had the same issue.. my dad was very abusive and left and i was soooo mad for a long time.. then i got pregnant.. and the first few conversations where SOOOOOOO awkward... i didnt even wanna try cuz i was soo mad at everything and he stepped up.. it took him a little while but i mean i wasnt even talking to him for 5 years before i called him to let him know.. and he still doesnt let the past be past.. he still someimes tells me how horrible he was ( usually when he is drunk) but we have an awesome relationship now.. i cant say i fully trust him and i wouldnt say its perfect and it took a LOT of time!! but im so glad i kept pushing because now my son is 16 months and he has his grandpa there for him and i have my dad back ↑
Name: PreciousBaby19 | Date: May 24th, 2008 2:28 PM
Yeah, i know it wuold take time....but he doesnt ' even want to try...and its like..I've done enough, the rest of my family have moved on..but not him...not only that though but he didnt talk to his dad for 22 years because of the SAME THING...his dad made him choose between my mom and his family..so he left. I did the same thing. he gave me a choice...and i made it. i choose the love of my life. He just...didn't see what he was doing to everyone. his anger and abuse. it was horrifying. I hate reliving it. I just dont want to remember anymore, bnut i try and move on and he brings it back again. So before his dad died..he forgave him and spent one year with him. we got to know him and it was great. When he died...we stood over his coffin together...and i was on my knees..my dad put his hand on my shoulder and said...I wish i would have given him a second chance and puthtings right sooner. But i'm glad that i got to know him before it was too late. ............Now is it just me or is he doing it the same again with his daughter. My dad and i were so close. Much closer than the other children and him. So...why can't he learn from his past mistakes...I used to think i did something wrong. But i didn't. I made the best choice for ME!!..i love him. but i just...can't blame myself anymore. and i'm done blaming him. I just wnat to move on. After all the rest of us have.....but hes still left alone..and if hes not careful then hes going to loose everything. Including my mother. ↑
