Name: pinkbo0tlace | Date: Feb 28th, 2008 10:33 AM
my name is ashley. i have a 3 year old daughter and a one year old son. i am due sept 12, 08. the father is the same father of my son, and of course, like usual and himself - he doesn't want anything to do with me or this child and this pregnancy. i feel ashamed for getting pregnant again - but i can't go back so i just have to look to the future. i have decided on open adoption but - my heart aches at the same time. my feelings are very mixed...half of me knows this is honestly the best thing for this child right now, to have two loving, married parents that can finacially, emotionally & mentally, & physcially care for s/he. But, the other half of my heart is sobbing that - this is what it has to come down too. i hate the idea of leaving the hospital with no baby, i cannot nurse s/he, etc... but at the same time i hate to think of the struggles three children would bring on to me, and them as well. anyone have any supportive advice? please no bashing about me getting pregnant again - every woman's situation is different & this is a place to offer support & understanding.... not to hurt each other. thanks. ---ashley ↓
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Name: clindholm | Date: Mar 18th, 2008 11:25 AM
When do you need to make your final decision? Hopefully, you have some time to come to terms with whichever option is best for you. It is great that you are putting the baby's well being first. Don't be so hard on yourself, there are plenty of women who make mistakes with men! ↑
