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I want so badly to be happy and excited, but am depressed and terrified and feel horribly alone. I thought that pregnancy would be a breeze. I worked my way through college, spent over a year in Iraq, and work currently as a correction officer...I thought I was "tough"....but I feel exhausted all the time at twelve weeks. I have terrible nausuea, not just morning, but all day....I have been reading that this is common. But on top of all the physical stuff, I am financially terrified. I work at a medium security male inmate prison as a correction officer, and now that I am pregnant, I am terrified something will happen to the baby and afraid that I am too sick and too tired to do my job properly. But they do not consider me to be pregnant until I am "further along"...so probably until I am showing so much that I can't possibly work with inmates. I just got this job recently....and am afraid if i quit we will lose our home...we had been facing some financial difficulties....i mentally dont feel like i have the strength to keep working....but don't know what i will do for insurance or pay if i quit....i feel very alone....any words of wisdom????
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