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I was just reading some of the old responses regarding this subject. I am almost 40. I have three older children from my previous marriage, the youngest of them being 10. No complications. A couple of years ago I got remarried and my husband and I had a honeymoon baby 9 months later with no complications. Thank you God. Last year, after 4 healthy pregnancies, I miscarried in September. My husband and I were devastated! We were so looking forward to having a sibling close to the age our little one. I started bleeding at what was supposed to be 11 weeks pregnant and within 3 days, miscarried. The baby would have been due in the next couple of weeks in April. With the hope of a second chance I found out I was pregnant again at the beginning of this month. Not sure how far along, although the nurse prac. figured I was 9 weeks along, I went for a sonogram today. Right before I went, I has the slightest notice of a light brown discharge. According to the sonogram, I am 6wks and a couple of days, but was told the heart rate is about 40- 50bpm. Which I was told is too slow. I am scheduled to go back next Thursday to see if there's a heartbeat still and how strong. My husband's at a loss for words and I don't understand why this is happening again! I am devastated at the thought of another miscarriage, especially around the time the pregnancy from last year would have been born. This waiting game is so traumatic! You pray that God will strengthen the heartbeat and heal the baby, but fear a repeat of a few months ago! I can't help but wonder why after being blessed w/4 healthy pregnancies is this happening..am I getting to old to carry a full term healthy baby even though I did two years ago? The sad thing is as much as we yearn for a young sibling for our little one, if I miscarry again, I don't think we'll ever try again. Thankfully my older 3 are wonderful to their little sibling, but with them being that much older I fear the generation gap will end up leaving our little one feeling like an only child. My heart is aching for answers as to why this happens! Is there any hope? I am praying for a miracle. I never realized how painful emotionally miscarriage can be until I experienced it last year..once was enough. Now it might happen again? What causes the heartrate to be slow on a otherwise normally sized "embryo" as they called it?
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