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Hi,
This is my first pregnancy, and I'm totally confused... Maybe someone else has gone through this and can offer some answers or support? Here's what's happened so far.
I found out I was pregnant about 2 weeks ago, and my husband and I were thrilled (A little terrified too, but in a good way!). Within days, however, I noticed brown spotting and tiny tissue particles in the toilet. I went in for first Ob/Gyn appt, and the doctor could tell my uterus was thickening, but could not find a sac... she said this is not necessarily unusual since it's so early, but DID seem concerned about my spotting... She thought it was a possibility that I was having a miscarriage or ectopic pregnancy, so she had me come in for blood tests.
I was tested twice, two days apart. First results were: 20.5 progesterone, 36000 hcg (doctor said these #s were strong). Second test came back with ~ 50000 hcg (didn't double like it should have, but still a fairly big increase... right? I would have expected it to go down or level off if I were miscarrying).
Now I'm about 7 weeks along... still brown spotting and passing small reddish or clear tissue every day. However, I'm also feeling like my pregnancy symptoms are growing (nausea, loss of appetite for most foods, tender breasts, emotional).
I'm just totally confused by these conflicting symptoms. I don't want to get too caught up in the excitement of the pregnancy for fear that I'll be crushed if it doesn't work out. But I'm also having a hard time shutting off my mind from going back and forth. I'm so exhausted by this feeling of grief mixed with hope. I don't have another appt for about 2 weeks, and I don't know if I can wait that long feeling like this.
Has anyone gone through anything like this? I just need to feel like I'm not going crazy, and get some reassurance that I'll eventually be able to figure out and accept what is happening.

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