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For starters...

I am a divorced 35 y/o mom of 2 children: Dylan, 10 and Lexie, almost 7. I have been seriously dating this guy that I went to kindergarten with for almost 2 years.

Yesterday morning, I opened a dresser drawer up to put some make-up on, as I was looking through the drawer... I found an unopened pregnancy test... One that came in a box of 2 (We previously had a scare about 4 months ago).

Just on a whim... I decided to take the test. I didn't wait the full time for the results and tossed it back in the drawer. My period is not due until tomorrow. It should not even be a concern.

This morning, while getting ready for a bridal shower... I opened up the drawer and I picked up the test and looked at it. My jaw dropped, the test fell out of my hand... It read positive. I have been on the pill since April of 2005.

I didn't know what to do. It gnawed at me all morning. My boyfriend called around 11:30, and I just made some normal day-to-day conversation.

Stuck between a rock and a hard place, on one hand... I wanted to tell him, but didn't want to alarm him if it weren't necessary.

Well... I got to some more thinking... I love this man with my every being. I cannot lie, nor would I want to cause an arguement had I waited until my period was due tomorrow, and taken the test later during the week, I didn't want to be faced with... "If you had any indication before, why didn't you tell me sooner?"

So... I'm waiting for this bridal shower to start, and it turns out that I was an hour early. I got the nerve to call him again... and told him that we needed to talk, but that I couldn't do it over the phone.

He invited me over. I told him he needed to sit down. I said what i felt needed to be said. He was as shocked as I was... probably more so because he has no children of his own. But he reassured me that there's nothing to worry about. If "WE" are pregnant, then we'll deal with it. Everything will be ok.

I took another of the same kind of test in the bathroom of Wal-Mart (how pathetic). Even at this point... I don't know if I want it to be positive or negative. Walked out... the three minute mark hit when I reached my car. I opened up the bag and... Yupper... it read positive.

I called him and told him. He was still as positively supporting as earlier. But... I told him I was still uncertain in my head and that it was eating away at me. I couldn't wait until tomorrow. I went back to the store and got another (different type of test) to confirm that I WASN'T pregnant.

Online, I read if you are in doubt... get a digital test. So I did. Within the first minute of waiting.... it literally said "PREGNANT".

I know in my heart that I am. And I know that my boyfriend will support things 100% of the way. I want to experience this... and even though the thought of being pregnant hasn't really sunk in yet, I know I will be elated when it does. The problem I am dealing with right now is that my younger sister miscarried in March 2005 and has been trying ever since to conceive. She has one daughter that she conceived easily. She and her husband tried and tried for the second and they lost gracie just shy of 25 weeks gestation. She got pregnant again about 3 months ago and it was deemed a chemical pregnancy. I was talking with her last week, and not even thinking on my part stated... "So and so is pregnant" and she snapped at me.

I don't want to alienate my sister... how do I tell her? We are a close knit family. It's not something that I will be able to hide.

Please advise....

Thanks,
Tobeo
rnottobe

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