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I am 6 weeks pregnant and the father could could be one of two people.... agh im such an idiot! Oh and neither are my boyfriend.
The Story of S.
Me and a freind of mine, were working together in the studio for a few months and started a causal relationship...he now has grown to one of my very best friends.... but still we are not boyfriend or girlfriend. Anyway we have sex all the time, it works out for us....we both live in LA and play major roles in the music industry.. our lives are crazy from shows and events...to studios and artists... its crazy.. but the point is I had sex with him on a weds the week I was Ovulating, we also got tested last year so we could have sex without condoms.... so we were safe but not protected from pregnancy. We never have sex with condoms, to be blunt, its pull and pray.
The Story of R.
Now, it gets confusing, that same week I had sex with another guy, so unplanned... we had dinner.... a lil to much wine.... came back from the spa... and ya know what happend next. But the thing is with this guy, lets call him R. We used a condom the whole time!! but im still very parnoid!!
If the baby is my best freinds, S. then I want to keep it, but it it is R.'s I really dont. R. already had 4 kids and I do not know much about him, other then his work, which he is kinda a big deal, but he just basically is an LA playboy, event and party junkie..... and the world he works in collides with mine... fuck it...he works in the NBA as a publicist. All his friends mostly know all mine and etc. We even do some work together on the charity tip.
Telling them...
So I told R. that I was pregnant, he said he doesnt want any kids right now and get an aborption. and I told him about the fact ive been sleeping with my best freinds S. for the last 6 months too. He was just an asshole.... no thoughts for my beliefs on aborption...nothing... I really dont think Im capable of killing a child and not having in haunt me down... but i dunno..
Here is the problem.....
I have not told S. yet, my best freind, I told him I am pregant but I have not told him there might be some retarded 1% chance its some other guys baby. Now, S. doesnt want a baby either. But he would be a great Dad, so I would be okay with it.
I know you can get a CVS test at 11 weeks, it is a paternity test to see who the kids father is... its 1200 and it will be hard to come up with, but I could ask them both. I asked R. already but he ignored me and told me to get an abortion. Dudes are such assholes!
I want to tell my best freind S. the truth... but everytime I see him the timeing is off, and im sacred if I tell him, he will get mad, and that might take away the only support system I have right now. I scheduled an abortion for the 28th of this month or I have my 2nd baby checkup on the 31. I cant decide what to do.
How do I tell him? How do i get them both to cough up money for the paternity test? Help..........
Did I mention I am the boss of my own company, So i also have no idea how that will run, with me taking off... agh...
-The girl that everyone loves but no one knows.
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