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Okay so here it goes. I lived in San Francisco for two years with my ex boyfriend. My mother passed away unexpectedly at age 47 in January so we moved back to mass and moved into my moms house. We broke up in May due to a number of reasons. We did try to concieve in early May but dont think it worked. Anyways, I went to my 10 year High Scool reunion 2 weeks after we broke up and I started to date a guy from Highschool. 2 weeks went by and I wasnt over my last relationship so I told him I didnt want to see him anymore cus he started being clingy and wanted more than I did. Just plain creepy. I was just having fun and I needed some attention at the time. We had sex 2 times and he did not ejaculate. Then my grandmother died unexpectedly. I find out that I am pregnant 2 weeks later. I went to planned parenthood to get an abortion but couldnt go through with it. He knows that I dont want to be with him and I dont want to have his baby. He went off the deep end. Started calling me "Whore" "CUnt" "Baby killer" etc. I have had an abortion in the past when i was still in nursing school and I swore I would never have another one. I dont want to raise a child in a broken home like I had. He doesnt know how that is because his parents are still married. He ended up not sleeping for 3 days last week and crashed his truck.. then ended up in a Psychward where they thought he was Bipolar or needed anger management. He treats his Mom like crap and promises me he wont treat me that way. He wants to always be there for me and the baby but I dont know what to do. I am not attracted to him at all especially now that he has been treating me this way...I will admit that I havent been very nice to him but he seems like he can be a real sweatheart and asshold at the same time. What do i do??? I am 27 years old, Registered Nurse who worked so hard to have a good life for my future kids. Emotionally I dont think im ready for any of this. Ive been so depressed and emotional. I just started a new job in April too. I wanted to be married first or at least in love before I have a child. My mom was bipolar and I dont want to deal with another bipolar person in my life. I really do want to have a baby but Is it healthy to raise a child in this condition. What do i do?????