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Here Is my story. I'm 27 years old. I am now 16 weeks pregnant with my first child. The father and I are not together, and thats where my story begins. I am currently pregnant by my ex. We were together for 7yrs.However he and I never stop seeing each other. I found out that I was pregnant in April, and at first he seemed okay with it. Now he doesnt talk to me at all. He has never been to a prenatal apmnt with me. I ask and he never come through for me.
I live in a state without my family, and with a handful of friends. I have seizures, and I don't have a strong support system to help me here. I do however have a decent job, and know that I will be able to provide for my child alone. However it doesnt stop my heart from hurting.
I never expected him to turn his back on me the way he did. I'm not sure if he's just being a coward about the situation for now, or if this is how it's going to be.
I find myself crying and praying to God alot, asking if I made the right decision to have the baby. I've been pregnant before, and had an abortion, and I couldnt bring myself to do it this time around. I'm 27 I know what could happen when you have unprotected sex, so I have no excuse for my actions.
However I'm over here going through the trials and tribulations of being pregnant while he's off just enjoying life, without thinking of his responsiblity.Which pisses me off! who wouldnt want to experiance this blessing? Mind you he has no other children. This is his first as well.
I live very close to his family which doesnt make it any easier, to see him come visit them, and don't stop by to see if I'm okay, or if I need anything. A big part of me is telling me to move from where I'm currently living, but I'm not sure if I'll find something that will be in my price range with all the ammenities that I have at my current apartment. Plus with the baby coming I have to buckle down financially.
To be honest if I could find a rock big enough I will live under it.

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