One Year On A Celebration

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sophandbob - February 9

I don't know what I want from this, but I feel the need to talk about this, but don't have anyone else to talk about it too. Not one understands why I would still be thinking about it... On this day, last year, I was 9 weeks pregnant. I had a massive bleed at 10pm and was taken to A+E. I was examined, and told I had miscarried my baby and was kept in overnnight. The next day they told me I had an 80% I had already miscarried, or that it would happen by the end of the weekend and was sent home. I was brought in for an ultrasound on the monday, and my little one was still there. I glance over at my little boy and am filled with joy and awe at his presence, and feel so blessed. The anniversary freaks me out a little though. Part of me wonders - was it twins? Did I really lose a baby and I've not known? (My medical notes don't say for sure one way or another, but think probably not - but after them saying I'd lost Bob...) I can't help but think about what happened. I don't really know why.

 

LisaB - February 9

I can only imagine how hard that must have been so I would think it would stick with you for a LONG time. I had an ectopic pregnancy and a miscarriage so those days and my due dates are rough for me. I think the not knowing if it was twins would eat at me- I need to know everything so that would keep my mind reeling!!

 

sophandbob - February 9

I know. I have every respect for women who miscarry. I didn't lose my son, but what did happen had a horrible effect on me. i couldn't begin to imagine the pain of a miscarriage.

 

Erin1979 - February 9

One of my patients lost twins when she was 7 months along. Throught her whole pregnancy she kept saying "something wasn't quite right", and she was right. Sometimes there is another power at work. The day may be a reminder, but as the years pa__s, you'll realize that it is actually a life altering expereince. It has made you realize that life is fragile, and will make you appreciate all that you have. It's natural to wonder what "might have been", that's what makes us human. Just know that you had an angel watching over you one year ago today who knew that Bob was going to bring you so much joy, and taught you something, just as you will teach him. Just my thoughts!! :-)

 

kellens mom - February 9

Those were some pretty terrific thoughts Erin1979. I couldn't have said it better myself.

 

Emily - February 9

sophandbob, I remember when I m/c I thought hte baby's due date would be hard. It was not so bad, what was awful was the date of the m/c. I actaully had a D&C. I was spotting only and they did an u/s after I laid ont eh couch all weekend wondering what was going on. Anyway I had the u/s and there was my baby, but no h/b. I was so upset. It was an unplanned preg, but it didnt help much. I am so gald you didn't lose your little man. I now Have MArcy and I would not have her had I not lost that baby, but it really doesn't help any. I am sorry you had to go through that. I m/c or even being lead to believe you have had one is an awful experience. Just hang onto your lo and thank God. I still have to do that sometimes! I def have learned to be thinkful for everyhitng I have

 

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