Feeling Sad

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Jill - April 10

I don't know where to begin. This has been a rough weekend for me. My grandmother is in the hospital, and we didn't think she had much time left. The doctors thought she would only live for "minutes". She is so strong and is fighting so hard, and is starting to slowly get better. I feel so thankful to God that she is coming around, and I pray that she will be around to hold my baby when I have one. I don't know if that is even a possiblity because of her health, but I pray for it anyway. I also feel down because tomorrow was my original appointment for my u/s when I would first get to hear my baby's heart beat. I feel so overwhelmed with so much grief, and I am having a hard time keeping a positive att_tude. I hope that everything starts to pick up a little because I am so emotionally drained. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I just want something to make me feel happy. Sorry to vent, but I just feel like I have so much on my mind, and not many people to talk to. My family will listen, but right now with my grandmother in the hospital, who wants to hear about my problems. I don't want to bring it up and be selfish. I need to be there for my mom because this is a very difficult time for her. Thanks for listening.

 

Nicole - April 10

Hi Jill, so sorry about your loss, and now for your grandomther's ill health. It's hard to understand sometimes why things happen all at once. The month before I got married, both my grandmothers died on the same day. These situations are very difficult for the whole family, and it's very hard (it was for me at least) to see our parents so sad. I think it reminds us of the grief we'll live in our lifetime. And add that to the grief we've had recently and all the future we were planning and it makes for a pretty rough time. For me, I am trying to keep things in perspective (able to get pregnant, healthy, etc.) and doing new positive things for me (trip, new hairdo). I know it's so hard all at once...keep praying and stay positive knowing it's ok to be sad and down. Good luck to you for all that's happening. I'll keep you in my prayers.

 

Allie - April 10

Jill, I am so sorry to hear about the troubles you are going through - I don't know your religious beliefs, but if you are of a religious nature have you considered talking to your pastor or someone at your church? I kow a lot of the woman in my church have been so supportive and it's easier to talk to them b/c they are removed from the situation.

 

Alison - April 11

Jill I am so very sorry. My Nana pa__sed away just 4 days after I found out I was pregnant the 1st time.I miscarried at 9 weeks when there was no heartbeat and I hated my mum being upset again. I can understand how you feel about not wanting to upset your family further in the circ_mstances but I think they might be more upset to think you are going through this without their support. It is good your Grandma is coming around I pray she will fully recover and be well again. I also pray you will recieve all the love and support you need at this time-I've had 2 miscarriages and I know how awful it is especially when there are other family troubles going on. My thoughts are with you xxx

 

Jill - April 11

Thanks to all of you for your kind words. I do try to think of positive things to come in my future. It is often difficult, but knowing I have this site to come to and talk with other women who understand is very helpful. I have been praying a lot, and I ask God to help me get through each day. So far he has, even if the days aren't always great. I really appreciate all of your kind responses. Talk to you soon.

 

Alison - April 11

Jill I bought a wee book called "An Empty Cradle, a Full Heart" (by Christine O'Keeffe Lafser) On each page there is a comment/reflection by someone who has had a miscarriage and a bible verse. It is a nice little book and alot of the things in it were saying exactly how I have felt. The verses were helpful too. Thinking of you and hoping that in time we will be all posting each other about good news instead xxx

 

Jill - April 11

Alison-Thanks. I might go get that book after work tomorrow. It will be nice to have something like that. Every once in a while I look on calendars for thoughts that might make me feel better, but most of the time, their sayings don't relate to me. Thanks again.

 

Allie - April 11

I bought a book by the same author's called "Trying Again" about trying to concieve after a miscarriage, stillbirth or infant loss. I've just started it, but it seems like a really good read for this stage of things. The other book I bought wasn't any help at all.

 

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