The Exciting 2ww THE BIG Weekend For TESTING Part 18

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2ndtimeround - January 29

Bring it on ladies, we need some more BFPs.... ~*~*~*babydust*~*~*~*

 

krissy2006 - January 29

Ladies, I don't mean to start off this thread on a negative note but I am having a REALLY HARD NIGHT. I was looking through everyone's piczo sites and everyone's charts and it just hit me so hard that I have been trying for nearly a whole year now and nothing has happened even with supplements and good timing. I am sitting here with tears rolling down my face because my desire to be a mommy is so so strong and I just feel like it will never happen. I feel like sinking into the carpet and just dissolving into nothing. I am hoping and praying that this is just PMS and a huge flux of hormones but I feel so depressed. I relapsed on all my bad eating habits. I haven't been able to bring myself to exercise and the fact that I feel like such a c___ppy "woman" for not being able to get pregnant just keeps eating at me and eating at me. Especially when DH is constantly rubbing it in my face how easy it is for all the Mexican girls/women he has ever known to get PG. I just wanna scream and hit something and sue the d__n gyno who allowed me to take depo. !!!!!!! I am so depressed. Marcelle are you still on?

 

2ndtimeround - January 29

Morning everyone.... I trust we all had a good weekend. I'm still trying to catch up on threads 14 to 17...... Krissy, I'm so sorry about AF showing. Damn her!!! How are our 2ww-ers doing??? Any new symptoms to report. Nerissa, Frozen, Hapi, Socalmom, Ella, L1NDZ, (oooo, hope I haven't missed any PG ladies here, if so I'm really really sorry, you ladies have just been so busy posting it's hard to keep up with you all) How are you and your beans doing? You ladies are starting to out number us ttc-ers.. LOL.... well almost. I hope a lot of us, all of us, will joining you real soon. So can we maybe get a run down again of who got what votes?? I can't remember.... and I'm missing some charts here, Layni our resident bookie or Megs, could you please post the votes with the chart links..... Pretty Please with a cherry on the top.... =) Have a wonderful monday! ~*~*~babydust~*~*~*

 

2ndtimeround - January 29

Krissy, my sweetheart.... I haven't read all the posts yet, and if you have mentioned it.... maybe you need to go see your doc? Has DH been to a doc yet, or wont he go? Maybe you need to start working from that point and ruling out any fertility issues with you or him. DH has no right to rub it in your face about not being PG, he really must remember that it takes two of you to make a baby.... I'm not sure what to say that will make you feel better. I think ttc is one of the most stressful thing a women can endure. I can so relate to you feeling like a "c___ppy woman" for not being able to fall PG. I go through that every time AF shows her ugly face. I allow myself a few days to feel down/depressed/sad/angry. You have to deal with those emotions and let them out. If you need to scream, then scream, if you need to hit something, lie on your bed and hit your pillows and stomp your feet. It's good to let those feelings out. Then once you have calmed down, then you need to take action once again..... and try find something positive and get motivated to ttc. I know it's taking a long time, I hear you girl, I'm going onto my 9 cycle soon. I've decided to change doctors. Maybe you need to find a doc in your area that is proactive and helpful with falling PG. Maybe you might want to try half a break cycle.... leave all the supplements and just go with the flow. I know it sounds very cliche and all that. But you need to give yourself a breather once in a while, or you are really going to drive yourself nuts. Yeah, your hormones right now (PMS) are playing havoc with your body and emotions. I promise you'll feel better tomorrow or in a few days. Just remember we are all here for you, and soon we are going to need you as well. Sorry I can't give you a solution here. The best I can do is send you a ((( HUG ))).

 

krissy2006 - January 29

Thank you Marcelle. I think that is what I am going to do. I am not going to temp this cycle and I am not going to take any supplements except for the folic acid. I can't go to a Dr. just yet cuz insurance at dh's new work hasn't kicked in and because its a new job money is a bit tight. Hopefully the middle of next month I will be able to get in and get checked out. I am also thinking about just taking some extra money and going to Jenny Craig or some such place. I did that program before (and had to quit cuz it go so expensive) but dh is supporting me in that aspect so I think I'm gonna do it. But again as soon as we are on our feet which should be in 2 weeks. Thanks for the (((hugs)))) I need them. I just feel so ugly, so fat, so nasty and depressed right now. I suppose you are right though. Tomorrow is a new day (today...lol its 12:26am) and things will probably look brighter. Thanks again Marcelle.

 

2ndtimeround - January 29

Good for you, just try and get something to take your mind off it... GL with the not temping..... It's really difficult to stop, ask me, I was so big mouth about stopping but then cracked middle cycle. But it's ok, because I wasn't stressed out by it. That was the one change I made this cycle, just not stressing about what the BBT says or doesn't say. It's hard to break the habit of temping, because we have been doing it for so long, guess it's just like quitting smoking, hmmm, wish they made those patches/gum for ladies trying to stop temping..... LOL.... But seriously we all need to start relaxing a bit more.... that's what I love about this thread and everyone here, we have taken ttc and turned it into friendships and a lot of "fooling around" on this thread. It sure does take the edge off ttcing. I think you should do something for yourself, eg. Jenny Craig system. Once you start feeling happier about yourself then things will start falling into place. It's so totally normal to feel "so ugly, so fat, so nasty", half of it is due to hormones and the dissapointment of AF. You might even wake up tomorrow morning and say "WTH was I going on about yesterday.... I feel great today." =) And don't worry too much about not exercising right now, who the hell feels like doing that while AF is here any way... my DH knows the day AF hits, he better be armed with donuts and ice cream, and anything else that is sugar or chocolate coated.. LOL... You really need your DHs support on this, and make sure he understands how you are feeling. Hope you feel better real soon. And just take care of yourself and love yourself.

 

Purplehaze - January 29

Morning Ladies I think I'm out had a HUGE temp dip today oh well. Sorry your feeling low Krissy and sorry AF came. It will happen for you ((hugs)). Lissica!!!!! Is that a BFP I see on your site??? Congrats. Good luck to everyone else hope you get your BFP's in the next few days. love Hazel

 

2ndtimeround - January 29

Hazel, isn't 11dpo too early for your temp dip and AF??? I noticed you only get your temps here by 13dpo onwards... maybe this could be a late "implantation dip"???? Reason being for the - HPTs, It will be interesting to see what tomorrows temp does. Oh, and pls post lissica's chart addy, I also want to see that early BFP. ;)

 

Purplehaze - January 29

Marcelle it's home/lissica She's not put it on her chart but theres a pic of a + HPT. Wake up Lissica and spill the beans :) I thought my temp dip was a bit early too but think I'm clutching at straws a bit. How about you? Have you had any unusual signs or symptoms? Haze x x

 

2ndtimeround - January 29

Hazel, I guess I could have guessed lissica's chart then HEE HEE.. typical me, too lazy to try it out and waiting for someone to post it... We can always hope until AF shows... Now this day must be over with, so that you can temp tomorrow, with hopefully a nice spike.. as for me... hmmmm, I can list a few but it could really be PMS or PG... 1)left bb hurts sort of 2) sore throat and congestion 3) on and off cramps, feels like AF but not quite 4) waves of nausea now and then 5) very vivid dreams 6) started going to the bathroom a lot today 7) headaches 8)...... what happened to me not obsessing and looking for symptoms this cycle... LOL LOL LOL I keep going to the bathroom to check if AF is here, because it sure does feel like it.. but then there is nothing on closer inspection... Lissica, just looked at your photo, that sure does look like a BFP.... I hope we get a nice dark one to look at today... =) ps, I did have your chart, silly me was just confusing you with someone else.... It's monday, I don't function well on a monday

 

carla123 - January 29

hi ya hazel how you doing? what date is af due for you? mine is 8th feb not that long now!! hope fully she does not show for us (and everyone else reading this!!) good luck. xx

 

Megs - January 29

AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is all I really need to say. But I won't stop there. I will take the liberty to fill everyone in... So I did break down and used my LAST $ tree HPT. Of course, it was a BFN. I have TONS AND TONS (TMI) "Stuff" coming out of me. like so much so you can see a lot on my panties! So maybe everyone was right and I have not O'd yet... If I put in a temp of 97.1 or higher for tomorrow it moves my O date from CD16 to CD25! :-( GOOD GRIEF! I just want to have AF arrive and get the show on the road people!!! haha. I was just SO excited about my "short" cycle and my "lengthened LP" and now it's all gonna be taken away from me!!!!! There's my frustrations for the morning. I just keep feeling like AF is going to show though and this would be pure torture if I had to feel like this the next seven + days!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Alrighty then... I'm done. Back off to sleep, hopefully and will try to forget about this. Yeah right! Who am I kidding! Come on ladies, PLEASE oh PLEASE bring me some good news this morning so I'll forget about mine!!!!!!!! :-)

 

carla123 - January 29

megs tell me more about your cycle?? how long is you cycle normally? mine is 35days and only ovulated a few days ago and that was cd 22-23 so keep your hopes up. what are your temps today?? do your temps go quite high? xxx

 

2ndtimeround - January 29

Well one positive to moving your "O date" to CD25 is your bding is well timed!!! =) I hope you get some answers soon. It's not fair for FF or your body to be playing with you!!

 

Megs - January 29

Ha! Carla my FF is home/mae-may I tell ys what, I'm SOOO using OPK's next cycle... Maybe then I'll get some definate answers...... My cycles range from 23 to 69 days with 44 being the average according to FF. BUT this cycle I started taking Vitex, Damiana, and most recently Red Raspberry Leaf which are all supposed to "even out" your hormones thus your cycles and all... All I gotta say is SUCK SUCK SUCK!!!!!!!! Thanks Marcelle for that positive insight... IF FF does indeed move my O date I'll be ticked off at DH becuase he came home on Fri. and was "too sick" to BD and of course as you can see we did BD on Sat. and I wanted to Sun. AM but nothing... LOL OH well. If it's not meant to be, there's nothing I can do to change it. I guess I'll just need to take it one day at a time. STick to entering my temps first thing and then not looking at my chart od "a___lyzing" it. I'll have to do that with everyone elses' charts... LOL

 

carla123 - January 29

i think i am gonna start using opks next cycle if i am not pregnant this month. i ahd a miscarriage 3 months ago started trying last month and this is my second month. i have a 16month old daughter already. i have had 35 day cycles since erpc. so i am very regular. i have bd' near enough every day for 3 weeks!! dont wanna miss that eggie. but fingers crossed. dont wanna get my hopes up. how long you on here? really need to get off for abit and put my little girl to bed and have some lunch. xx

 

carla123 - January 29

but i dont wanna miss anything!! x

 

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