MIXED EMOTIONS SO CONFUSED

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shesdymed - June 16

well most of u already know that i was pregnant before but had an abortion to now know that i got 3 positive home pregnancy test these past 3 days. WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT AGAIN MIXED FEELING PAST ALL THRU MY MIND. I WASNT SO HAPPY TO KNOW THAT I WAS PREGNANT. THE FIRST TIME I WAS PREGNANT I WAS SOOOO HAPPY AND I WAS WILLING TO KEEP IT BUT SO MANY PEOPLE WERE AGAINST ME HAVING THE CHILD. AND WORDS CANT EVEN EXPRESS HOW MUCH I HAT EMYSELF FOR DOING THE ABORTION...................... ANYWAY, NOW THAT IM PREGNANT AGAIN I FEEL HORRIBLE, IM NOT HAPPY TO KNOW IM PREGNANT IM SOO STRESSED TO HAVE TO GO THRU THIS PROCESS OF TELLIN MY FAMILY AGAIN. I REFUSE TO GET ANOTHER ABORTION BUT I FEEL SOO BAD FOR FEELIN LIKE I DONT LOVE THIS BABY GROWIN IN MY BELLY. IM SCARED IN SOO MANY WAYS FOR MYSELF, MY BABY, MY FAMILY AND OUR FUTURE BUT I NEVER FELT THIS WAY AT ALL TOWARDS MY FIRST PREGNANCY .. WHY DO I HAVE MIXED FEELING ABOUT THIS PREGNANCY NOW? AND WILL IT GO AWAY EVENTUALLY? I FEEL SO BAD FOR FELEING THIS WAY/

 

shesdymed - June 17

well anyway i spoke to my hubby about it and i cried .. pretty much let my emotions all out to him. honestly i feel better. iguess it was just the stress in me from everythin i've been thru soo much. IT JUST SHOCKED ME TO KNOW I AM PREGNANT AGAIN BECAUSE LAST MONTH I HAD SYMPTOMS && THOUGHT I WAS PREGNANT BUT MY HTP WERE ALL NEGATIVE, SO I GUESS IT WAS JUST ME. this month i was feelin some symptoms but i thought maybe it was the birth control that im on thats just tryin to regulate my period and my hormones but i missed my period and took a test which came out positive. i guess thats what shocked methe most, i wasnt expecting that esp cause i was takin bc pills. BUT HWAT GOE TO SAY I WONT FEEL THE SAME STRESS IN A COUPLE OF MORE DAYS OR SOMETHING . IDK WHAT TO DO EVERYONE. I HOPE MAYBE U CAN GIVE ME SOM ADVICE. THANNXXX

 

shesdymed - June 17

hpt*

 

Mommy - June 17

You may feel better after you start feeling the baby move and start looking pregnant. If you don't think that you can deal with a baby and you're worried, why not try adoption? There are plenty of people who want babies but can't have them. I was freaked out about my last pregnancy and was in denial until I was 23 weeks or so. Then I told everyone (after finding out my brothers GF was pregnant again, that helped) and started my doctor appointments. I was already taking prenatals and everything and started going to doctor appointments. The freaked out feeling went away and I got excited about it. Hopefully your feelings will change soon, if not, there's always adoption. :o)

 

shesdymed - June 17

see, i'm alot like my mother, i hold in a lot of emotions and stress and keep it inside of me until i cant take it nemore and i b__w up. its unhealthy and i try to change but its hard. i guess after i break it down to my parents and get everythin over wih then it wil b alright. BUT WHAT ALSO MAKES IT SOO HARD FOR ME IS THAT IM HISPANIC, AND NOT TO B STEREOTYPICAL BUT THEY GOSSIP EVERY MINUTE POSSIBLE AND AT THE TIME THE PREGNANCY/ABORTION WAS TAKING PLACE MY UNCLE WAS LIVING WITH US FOR PERSONAL REASONS. WHEN HE FINALLY LLEFT HE TOLD MY OTHER UNCLE&HIS WIFE EVERYTHIN THAT HAPPENED IN THE HOUSE & THEY RAN AND GOSSIPED T THWHOLE FAMILY SO IT REALLY BRINGS ME DOWN AND WHAT HURTS ME THE MOST IS THAT BEFOR EI GOT PREGNANT THEY ALWAYS TOLD MY MOTHER, YOUR DAUGHTER IS THE ONLY ONE LEFT, ALL THE OTHER KIDS IN THE FAMILY HAVE KIDS AND QUIT SCHOOL SO ITS REAL HARD FOR ME NOT ONLY WITH THAT BUT SOO MANY OTHER THINGS. the week my mother found out i was pregnant, i got the abortion that weekend and that same day my father kicked me out cause he sed i was acting "funny" . so we got into a big problem which caused a fightand i was going to press charges and live with my boyfriend and his mother but i couldnt do it. regardless no matter what thats my father and im just soo hurt i've been thru soo much at a young age and it just keeps gettin worst. i just hope tihs time when they find out they dont expect me to get it aborted cause i refuse to do so.

 

Mommy - June 17

Where do you live at? There are quite a few places that offer shelters for sinlge moms and pregnant teen when they have nowhere to go. There are also many programs to help you with parenting and dealing with family. Good luck and thank you for not aborting.

 

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