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Now I am so lost. She called me last week to meet up and I didn't go, she called and asked why and I told her that I was working. I just didn't feel right about it, I know I should have told her that but I didn't. She told me her boyfriend was there waiting in the car cause it was none of his business. I don't want to have to do anything rash, and I still do Love her but I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know if I should wait for her if I should just go for sole custody or what. I was told something by the cop I went to talk to (I was worried about being set up and went to find out about it) He told me to follow my gut. It made me think cause my gut and heart tell me that she will come around, but my brain says she probably won't. I have so many people tell me don't let your heart cloud your judgement. But then people always say follow your heart and go with your gut (contridict much?) I am supposed to meet up with her tommorow and am trying to figure out what to do. My idea is to try to make her regret leaving me, With some new clothes that I got, a better body (I been working out), and just a better me. I'm just worried that I'll be me again, what i mean is I am a very passive person and I can say oh what a bitch and I never want to see you again and blah blah and then when I'm around her I am like " It's ok I'll be there for you" Cause thats how I feel. I love her. But all my friends are telling me to just let her go cause shes going to take the baby and I'll never see him and all this. My mom and dad both think that I'm a fool for trying to be nice about this since shes being so mean about it. I know that if I where at some point let her back into my life that I would lose some friends and that my parents would be pissed at me for a good long while. But I'm also worried that If i say F*^k it! and I end up getting sole custody of my son and she gets deported, That maybe she was telling the truth and wants me to be there. I just don't know what to do anymore. I love her so much, but She may be to far gone for me to keep reaching out for. Any advice on what I should do?

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