I am so sorry for your loss too. I actually know exactly what you are going through. My best friend had a baby two weeks after I lost my little girl. I was there for the birth of her son, and it was so painful. I just cried and cried. I have been really bad lately too...maybe it is hormones. Honestly, knowing the sex of the baby really helped me. I felt like I didn't want to ever forget her, not that that is even possible, but by knowing her sex and eventually naming her, I feel like my daughter is a part of me that I love so deeply, and that I will never forget. I do not have any other children, and I don't know if you do either, but I am really struggling with Mother's day coming up...am I am mom? I CERTAINLY feel like one! It's hard, but I have foungd comfort in knowing that someday, I will hold her in heaven and she will kiss away all of my tears. I wish there was something that made the pain go away, but I haven't found anything. Time does begin to heal though...be patient with yourself...you and your body need to rest. For the sake of your future children and yourself...take all the time you need to heal and your body needs. I am praying for you. And don't apologize for your "long" story...we all need a listening ear sometimes...don't be afraid to open up. Take care,
Kat
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