Thanks Kat....I have no other children...that was my first pregnancy also. Mothers day has always been weird for me since my mom passed when I was 17(Im 31 now), so at least Im used to it not being a fun day. I tell myself at least my mom got to be a grandma...the only positive thing! When I was in the hospital for the D & E a counselor came to talk to me about everything, and she told me that when mothers day comes to celebrate because we are mothers even though people dont see that. I'm not going to make a big deal of course, but I'm going to think of it as my day too...and you should too. I was so close to finding out the sex of the baby...the dr was holding the report right next to my face...maybe next time I see the dr I will ask. My friend also wants me to be in the delivery room with her, which I told her I would do before the m/c, but now Im wondering if I really should. It will be an amazing thing and an honor to be there, but I just don't want to start crying when I'm supposed to be happy, I guess I still have to think about it and see how I feel as August approaches. From what you said...I probably shouldn't. I'm trying so hard not to be selfish, but this is something that I just can't control as much as I try, and I'm trying not to let my friend see it, but I'm sure she sees it since I don't rub her belly and ask her tons of questions like I'm sure everyone else does. I think she's trying to understand...as much as she can at least. My husband says once I am pregnant I will feel better, but I don't really see it going away that easily which is scary. Well, anyway take care of yourself, I'll be praying for you also. Don't worry, when you are ready for another baby everything will work out fine. Everyone tells me how common this is and everyone ends up eventually having healthy children. Take care of yourself & keep me updated. - Lynne
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