Thanks so much to everyone who has poste...

Helen - September 11th, 2005 4:44 PM
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Thanks so much to everyone who has posted on this site. I have felt truly alone and scared before reading this just now. Perhaps I'll catch some sleep tonight now.

Here's my story. 3 weeks ago I missed my period and have tested negative ever since. I went to my doc and saw a locum who said I could still be pregnant, just keep testing. However, things started to fit together. Usually my periods are very heavy and last for up to 10 days. The 2 to 3 periods before my missed one were really light with bright red blood and lasting only a few days. Throughout that whole time I have been putting "weight" on only on my belly and looking increasingly pregnant.

I have a 5 year old daughter and by the time I was 16 weeks pregnant I looked as large as I do now (which is like 6 months for most people!). Everywhere else is slim. I also have started to feel movements like I did with my daughter. By my reckoning I could be as far gone as 20 weeks.

So I went back to my doc who is an older male doc and he was skeptical (despite my size!!!!). He had a really rough feel around my stomach and said he could find no "pregnancy structures" and tried to find a heart beat with a sonic detector which he placed on my groin????! He couldn't find one and said it was impossible to tell. Due to my insistence he has referred me to have an US which could come through any day. I went home that night and had dreadful cramps. Being in the UK I rang NHS Direct ( a help-line) and they told me to get myself down to A & E (ER equivalent). After 5 hours of blood tests , urine tests, stomach prodding and rude junior docs I was told that everything had come back negative so I couldn't be pregnant but my "acute abdominal distension" was very concerning so I was wheeled down to have an X Ray. The X Ray man refused to X Ray me as he said my notes suggested that I might have a sub-acute abdominal obstruction and that in all his years he had never seen anyone come in for an X Ray who looks so clearly pregnant. He argued with the doctor and I ended up being sent home with the doctor telling me I probably have ovarian disease!!!! But only an US will tell.

So I came home and from my net searches I've convinced myself I must have ovarian cancer. I am 40 years old and was delighted to think that I was pregnant but to be told that you are not, when you feel it (tiredness, swollen sore breasts, moodiness etc etc) and to cap it all you may have a disease which means that you cannot have children has been devastating. All of my friends have been cold comfort telling me to stop thinking about it until I get the results of the US. But as you ladies know you carry it around with you 24/7 don't you. Thanks for helping me to realise that I'm not going mad.


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