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jn, I feel the same way about school. It's really hard to no think about something that is such a big part of your life right now. There was a baby shower yesterday for another teacher. I like her a lot but just could not make myself go-too hard. I'm supposed to go back in 2wks (Sept. 6) for an u/s. TWO WEEKS! Seems like a lifetime away. I don't know how I'm supposed to act. I don't want to totally mentally believe that I am going to have a baby for fear of another miscarriage. But then again I want to nurture and care for the baby that's possibly growing inside me. Know what I mean? I slipped up and told someone else that I was pregnant and it turns out she had 2 m/c before she had her 3 children so she has been really supportive and understanding. Anyway, I'm still experiencing lower back pains and a little cramping here and there. Still no bleeding. This pregnancy feels different than the last which was a m/c. Last time I was bleeding on and off from the day my period was supposed to start until I m/c. Also last time I didn't cramp until the miscarriage "began" and they were the most awful, unbearable cramps I'd ever felt. So my prayer is that this is the real thing this time. But only God knows whether it is or not. I continue to plead with him for a miracle because every birth is just that and each life so precious and fragile. I will keep you all posted.

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