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Thanks Shelby for your kind words. I'm just so numb right now. I had a "real" blighted ovum about nine years ago... never any baby just an empty sac, and another like this (expelled naturally) at about six weeks earlier this year. Then I had what the doctor guessed was an ectopic, as they could never actually find the pregnancy and I was given methotrexate to dissolve it. I had an endometrial polyp removed shortly after that, which was though to contribute to my problems... I felt confident this would be a healthy pregnancy. I spotted a tiny bit in the first few weeks, took my progesterone since 5 weeks with absolutely no spotting after that and an embryo with a fetal heart beat at 7. 5 weeks. Everything I read said once you see the heartbeat, the risk of miscarriage plummets. I just don't understand how there could have been a baby with a heartbeat (right size for dates, good heartbeat) and then suddenly an empty sac two weeks later. The doctor said there appeared to be some "debris" in the sac, so I'm guessing the baby just disintegrated. He's having the "debris" tested for chromosomal abnormalities, and thinks this is quite likely the reason for the failure of this pregnancy. Which would make this miscarriage just really bad luck... But I can't keep going through this, whatever the reason. I've been pregnant three times since February, with crippling morning sickness this last time... I've lost almost a year of my life, worrying, in and out of hospitals, feeling sick... I feel like I have no quality of life. I am having trouble enjoying my husband and eight year old daughter... My daughter is from my first marriage. I had been married to her father for 7 year before getting pregnant - he started having an affair with a colleage when I was pregnant (had to abstain from sex due to placenta previa). He left me for her when my daugher was still an infant. Now I'm married to a great guy (who can have children - he has two from his first marriage), but am an old shrivelled up crone who can't carry a pregnancy. It's just too much to bear.

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