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Hello again everyone. Thanks so much for being so caring and making me feel somewhat better. I went today and had my hcg test done again, and it came back not even close to what the one nurse said it should have been. The first one was 113, 2nd one 2 days later was 198, third one (today) was only 353 and that was a three day span instead of the two because of Sunday. The nurse told me she thought for a good sign, the numbers should have been about 500-600 at least. And when the dr. called me tonight, she said it went up which is good, but not like it really should have. She wants to repeat it again in two more days and hope that it doubles or more now. She said that she is worried that if it doesn't double, that we may have to check for an etopic pregnancy. I can't do this all over again. This entire thing since finding out we finally got pregnant again is ending up the same way as 7 months ago when we had the miscarriage. Every single day I try to be more possitive, but everyday things go along like the sheer hell that we went through then. I asked my dr. to take another bloodtest and check my progesterone, and she did, but it isn't done yet. She told me that there isn't any real link to that and miscarriages??? I don't know what to believe anymore! The nurse telling me that we needed numbers of 500-600 for today, and the dr. calling with the numbers and saying that it's ok for now that it's only 353 and lets hope they go up in two days. I hate this being in limbo thing again too. I cannot believe this is happening again! The last time they checked for the etopic pregnancy and the baby was in the right spot, heartbeat and all on the ultrasound. I have two pictures of the baby I lost, and I just can't do it again. I can't even type about this without crying...this is crazy! I don't think I can try anymore after this pregnancy. I can't deal with this pain anymore. What do we ever do to deserve this crap??? I know way too many people that don't deserve even one baby, and they have like 5! Well, I'll let you know what my new numbers are on Wed. night, and where we are going from there. Oh, and the dr. said that I should only be about three weeks now or so, so I guess they don't go by the extra 2 week thing added to that?? Who knows...noone I guess~ Good night for now everyone...kisses, and best of wishes to you all....

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