Anyone Else Miserable Today

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Mellissa - May 8

i don't know what is wrong with me!!! i feel like a horrible person. I miscarried about two weeks ago...and I thought I was moving on, but today proved me wrong. My husband took me out to eat for mother's day (we have one daughter-20 months) and I was fine until I realized that just about every other woman walking in was pregnant! I don't know what happened to me. I lost it. I told my husband I couldn't eat there..went out to the truck and haven't stopped crying since. That was about 2 hours ago. I really feel like I am losing my mind!! Anyone else feeling empty? Sorry...I just have to vent I guess. It doesn't seem like anyone I know understands what I'm going through. Feel free to tell me I'm insane if you want....

 

A - May 8

i feel horrible today, I had my m/c 2 weeks ago as well and I don't have any other children. I'm alone today because my boyfriend is out with his mother. I feel completely empty.

 

Nica - May 8

Hi Mellissa, I understand completely, you are not insane! I miscarried in March, got pregnant again, and then found out two days ago that it's already over. It's terrible.

 

Laura - May 8

I had my miscarriage a month ago. Today was not only mothers day, but also my birthday. I woke up this morning and the first gift I got was my first AF since my m/c. I went to my "box" of baby things and pulled out a blanket and cried for my little girl. Somedays are just harder than others. I have found ways to try and make peace. I bought a willow tree angle that is holding a baby called Angels Embrace. It helps to look at it and remember where she is. My husband knowing how hard this day would be for me bought me a gold necklace with a heart with diamonds around it. Inside the heart is a very small silver woman holding a baby in her arms. I just touch it when the day seemed unbearable, because babies and pregnant women seemed to be everywhere today. You are not insane you are just a grieving mother.

 

Jamie - May 8

Hey, you are all so normal. I found out I had an ectopic tuesday before last. Plus I found out I had adhesions from an appendix removal 13 yrs before on my other tube and ovary so miscarriage & no more babies all in the same day. The only thing that keeps me sane is my 17 mo old daughter. I feel guilty that I had to have a medical abortion even though that pregnancy had no chance. And worse I still feel pregnant. Sore b___sts and nausea and pain from the surgery.

 

mellissa - May 8

I hate that we are all going through this... but i know it helps everyone to have people in the same situation. i feel bad because it's so hard to explain to my husband how i feel today. i told him it's kinda like having something you've always wanted...then having it taken away... only to be thrown in your face everytime you turn around. i cried for the first three days after the m/c..then i was okay. everyone now and then it will hit me that i'm not having a baby and i'll feel like crying, but i'm ok. today just got to me I guess. thank you all for your responses. it's so nice to have people to talk to who understand.

 

Rebecca - May 9

You are definitely not insane. My baby was stillborn at 21 weeks and that was in Dec. 2004. I still loose it if I see a newborn or ladies who are pregnant. It seems it is harder for me now then when it first happen and I think the reason is because my baby should be here with me now...I should have been celebrating mothers day! I also go thru my angry emotions too. I feel like no one around me understands, not even my husband. That is why I am hoping talking to other woman who have been thru what I have been thru will help me understand my feelings more.

 

dionne - May 9

i miscarried earlier this morning. i can't stop crying. we had been trying for 8 months... were so excited to find out only last week that i was 5 weeks along. i really just can't stop crying.

 

Crisy - May 9

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I also had a miscarriage 2 wks. ago. Your behaviour is absolutely normal. I felt like I was loosing my mind on Saturday. My husband and I went out with a bunch of friends. It was the first time that I was going out since the miscarriage. We were at the casino and I lost it. I wasn't talking to anybody. I just wanted to be alone. Everybody was so happy except me. It's very sad when you lose a baby. I feel more normal knowing that I am not the only one feeling like this. I don't think that you are insane and I hope that you will feel better. They say that the grieving process is difficult. There are moments when the person feels well and then there are days when the person just wants to cry. I planted a rosebush in the memory of my baby yesterday. I think that it might help you to plant a little tree or plant in order to remember your child and to say goodbye. I know that it helped me with my grieving. Right now I feel a bit better but God knows how I will be tonight or tomorrow. I can honestly say that I understand what you are going through and I will try to send you positive thoughts. God bless you.

 

Mellissa - May 9

Thank you all for your responses. I think the reason I took this m/c so hard was because it was like a rollercoaster ride for me and my husband. I went the the ER at 6 wks 1 day because of some bleeding...only to be told that everything was fine and we were having twins!! then i went for a follow up with my ob Dr. three days later and he told me that both babies were lost and I had a d&c 5 days later. it was so hard going from scared to SOOOO excited to devestated. I am so sorry that you are all going through this too. It makes me so sad to think of all the pain everyone is feeling. I really hope we all get to have healthy pregnancies soon. I know my husband and I are going to start trying around September because we are moving from Texas to Colorado in August. If ya'll need to talk feel free to keep writing...I check the forum daily.

 

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