Confused Amp Lonley

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Jadedamin - October 12

I'm 29, I am about 9 weeks pregnant with my first baby and I have been with the father of my baby for about 4 years, got married this year. he says he loves me and I have always tried to be the best I could for him but I never really felt he put half the effort to do the same. I am very emotional, I get upset easily and he can really push me over the edge when we fight to the point that I feel so hurt I wanna hurt him back and things get out of control and I slap him(even thou I am skinny and my hit is like nothing, he's twice my size). I know it's wrong to get to such an extent but sometimes I just can't help it. I can't take any medication that would make me not care so all I need it's his support and understanding. But he is selfis and very lazy, he'd never help me with much. Other than that he's not a bad person. He's not a violent nature, he'd never hit me out of nowhere but last time we had an argument and I pushed him he hit me back, several times, I tried to fight him back, I was in complete disbeleif, he gave me a black eye and acted like a complete stranger that would hate me. I know my emotions can go over the top and I become out of my mind and slap him first but I can't help the way I feel and the frustrations I feel from his lack of support for my condition and for the hard emotional momments I go trough. i ahve nobody but him and he tells me to go and make friends somewhere so I can go to them when I need support. So does anything justify him hitting me back so hard when I am pregnant with his child and seeing me how emotionaly drain I was and how lonley and depressed I felt for so long? He wants me to forgive him and says he'd never hit me if I wouldn't slap him first(and I belive that) but I can't get over the fact that he did it anyway and that I have to put more make up to cover my eye aria that is black and watch the bruises on my hands while my mind replays those moments. I live in New York City , a very draning place emotionaly wise and he is the only one I have here, no one else but him, except 2 or 3 acquaintances. I feel lonley, confused, scared and even if I would wanna leave the appartment where we live I would have no place to go, except sleep over in my office space. Anybody in a similar situation, anybody I can talk to? Any advice is welcomed.


Shaking my head.... - October 12

Oh , hell no . Don't let him hit you and don't justify the reason for him doing it ! Think about your baby . You wanted advice , RUN !


Jessica - October 12

That is very true, But you need to learn how to control your temper. You have NO right to hit or slap him ever. I am not saying you were asking for it but its not right and would p__s me off too. Why not seek counseling for the both of you? Maybe it would help. He still has no right to ever lay a finger on you. I am sorry that you are in this situation. If a man hit me like that and gave me a blackeye I would have his a__s put in Jail. Good Luck to you and I hope you have a happy healthy pregnancy.


jadedamin - October 13

Thank you for your advice, I really appreciate the fact you took the time to write me. This site is very helpfull, reading all this stories makes me think maybe my situation is not the worst.



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