How Can I Handle My Baby

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hope - May 11

Since I was 13, I was forced to see a psychiatrist to deal with my problems. I’m scared because I am doubting that when this child is born, I wouldn’t be fit to raise her. I can’t even take care of myself. People say I lived a spoiled life, whatever life I lived, I didn’t want to let it go. In a month’s time, I’m going to have to force myself to support and raise a child on my own. I am already prepared to go through post partum depression, and I’ve heard that when you go through that, you end up rejecting your own child. I feel awful for having thoughts like that. I tried to opt for abortion. But when I was in the room with the doctor, all I could think about was my little sister. My mother gave birth last year, and she’s our little bundle of joy. I’m totally in love with her, and I couldn’t bare the fact knowing that I was going to come home knowing that I killed something so innocent. The biological father immediately got another girlfriend the week after I told him I was pregnant. I definitely wasted 2 years of my life trying to devote myself to him. He was my first everything. I was stupid enough to give up my chance to a better education, my friends, and family’s trust just to be with him. Today, single, 18, and 8 months pregnant, I am definitely the one at loss. I’m in a place where my family and friends are hundreds and thousands of miles away from me. I’m breaking down everyday, and I hate hurting my baby because of my depression. I want to be able to get over my depression, I just need help in trying to do so. I have never felt so alone in my life and it’s the worst feeling. Please help me make the pain go away.


Stephanie - May 11

If you are able to, you should try to move back to where your family and friends are, because there is nothing better than a support system when the father is not there for you. I had to do kind of the same thing and keep focused on your baby and the life that you are going to give him/her. I am pretty sure that you have a huge amount of mixed feelings and don't really know where to sort them out. Try not to continue to focus on what you have lost, i.e., the father, and your education, etc., and focus on what kind of loving, happy life that you are going to be able to provide for you and your baby. It is going to be difficult, but the more you concentrate on the two of you, the easier it will get. You also might think of talking to a professional if it might help you. Good luck, and you will be a great mother to your baby!!! :0)


hope - May 13

thanks stephanie! thanks for giving me the little courage that i have left to get through this! i am seeing a psychiatrist at the moment, but his psychobabble and medical comments can only take you so far! How many months are you now? I hope that i will be a great mommy to my baby!



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