My Baby Died Inside Of Me

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Angelina - October 24

I really dont know what to start off by saying. My son died inside of me.His embilical cord was wrapped around his neck 2 times, around his shoulder once and tied in a knot. I had 3 weeks to go. I dont understand how this could even happen.This was my second pregnancy. Im sure most of you have heard from me before. My name is Angelina. Im only 17. My 18th birthday is next month. I felt a little different but not like anything was wrong. I went to the hospital and they couldnt find a hearbeat then told me i wasnt a priority because my baby was probably already dead so my mom took me to my delivery hospital and they told me the baby was dead and i would have to give birth va___ally.Then they doped me up on stadol so much. When it didnt work anymore they asked if i wanted an epidurl. Of course i did. Then to make things worse, the anesteisioligist refused me one because he said they gave me so much stadol that it thinned out my blood like water and if the epidural needle would have made me bleed there would have been no way to stop it and i would bleed to death. I now know what women mean when they say they feel the urge to push and they cant stop pushing. I dont think i would ever be able to do that again. I have a few pictures that im willing to share if anyone may be intrested in. They are very horrible. I think about baby Ethan every day and not a day goes by that i dont cry. We named him Ethan Anthony Gage Harris. He was 5 pounds 9.1 oz and 19 1/2 inches long.The hospital took a few pictures and made me a memory book.I dont think my 19 month old daughter understands that i dont have bubba in my tummy no more. She still kisses my tummy and says bubba. Even though hes not in there anymore i still cant bring myself to tell her bubbas not in there anymore. It used to be so cute and now its so heart wretching. Anyways i dont want to type anymore so im gonna go. My email address is if anyone wants to see my pics or just wants to talk or has any advice on books to read on this kind of stuff.


Angelina - October 24

By the way i had him on 10-04-05. my due date was 10-29-05


Saddened - October 24

I am so sorry to hear what you have gone through. I honeslty cannot say that I know how it feels, and I hope nothing but the best for you to get past this time in your life. You may want to look at local support groups in your city, that may help somewhat. I bet also there may be a number of support groups on the internet that you can go to as well. Make sure that you deal with your greiving properly and take any help that you are offered. Peace is with your little one and you will one day meet him. Again, deepest sympathies to you and your family.


Leanne - October 24

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. My baby died inside me in July last year and I gave birth to him. I was about 23 weeks. He was sooo tiny but still looked perfect, even though there was a LOT wrong with him. I have a picture of him that I'll treasure forever. I've only ever shown it to 2 people, my mum and the man that saved me. I don't think I'll ever show it to anyone else. I've got a gorgeous baby girl now. If you ever want to talk my email is I'm 23 by the way.


- October 24

Hey, im really sorry about wot happend :( Hope you feel better...


Lily - October 25

Hi girls, my baby died inside me too...also known as Missed miscarriage. I was 18 years old, and my baby was supposed to be 20 weeks. My baby's heart stopped beating, and they said he died around 13-14 all this time I had him and didn't realize anything was wrong. I had him v____ally, and got to hold him. He was so tiny, 4 1/2 inches long. The doctors told me he was a little boy, and they dressed him in an oversized shirt, wrapped around a baby blanket and his little bennie. I got to hold him and kiss him :) I feel blessed to atleast have that memory no matter how sad it was. I also got to hear his heartbeat once around 10weeks. I had a funeral for him aswell. I know my baby didn't look that developed, but he was so beautiful. The only thing I can tell you is that Iim 22 now, no kids yet. Time makes things a little better, but not completely I still cry. Just hang in there.



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